The Day the Abyss Wasn't Opened

    


     Today CERN (Large Hedron Collider) was supposed to re-start (and some worry warts were concerned this would result in earth being swallowed by a man-made black hole or gates of Hell being flung open). However, the event was re-scheduled.  I myself am not at all worried, since last time it was turned on this didn't happen. Some people connected it with the alleged prophetic event total solar eclipse to occur in five days, and the Passover blood moon (third in the tetrad series that began last year) on April 4th. Some connect those events to the prophecies of Revelation and Joel and other books of the Bible, heralding the coming day of Judgment from God:


And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood;...     -Revelation 6:12 (KJV)


The sun shall be turned to darkness, and the moon to blood, before the great and awesome day of the Lord comes.      -Joel 2:31 (English Standard Version)


If you're interested in learning more than read John Hagee's book Four Blood Moons: Something is About to Change.


     From time to time on here, I mention my sleep problems. Last night I woke myself up several times talking in my sleep. I wish I knew what it was I was saying. Also had recent sleep paralysis experiences again. I wonder why they are ALWAYS horrifying. Why cant I be paralyzed and having puppies licking me, rather than hell-beasts using my limbs in some infernal game of tug-of-war? Oh well, like I always say-at least I'm not in jail. Anything is better than that. I am returning to my fast in connection with the 19 Day Baha'i Fast. I had to take a Sabbatical (ha ha get it! Sabbatical?!) in lieu of an upper respiratory infection (which in its own way contributed to a increased level of spiritual awareness through increased bodily temperature, decreased food intake and OTC medicine.


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"When doubts haunt me, when disappointments stare me in the face, and I see not one ray of hope on the horizon, I turn to Bhagavad-gita and find a verse to comfort me; and I immediately begin to smile in the midst of the overwhelming sorrow. Those who meditate on the Gita will derive fresh joy and new meanings from it every day."
     -Mahatma Gandhi

Muggy in Oklahoma Today...and yesterday...and again tomorrow...

     In past days I have asked God for knowledge and revelation concerning a friend of mine. I believe that the prayer was answered when said friend began to clarify some issues with me. Though I may not be happy with what was said, I can take it as truth and revelation, assuming what she said was truthful. Again, the other night I yelled out in my sleep ("Listen Bitch"). But, it was not hostile per se. I yell out, scream and cuss quite often when I sleep. As I have mentioned before I suffer from strange dream phenomenon. Maybe I am doing battle with the Dark Man. I remembered the dream this time, but I usually don't remember the dreams associated with screaming or yelling out. I have bad dreams from time to time but rarely ever scary ones. My apocalyptic themed dreams have recently increased (though I don't always necessarily remember the details).

 

     Last night I spent the night at my Mom's house (which is a major achievement in itself). The neighbors there are hostile towards me, so going over there is not a good plan. But, being there last night caused no problems. I came back to Norman this morning, when my Mom dropped me off on her way to work. I had a quick breakfast and made my way to the library. For breakfast I had an Egg McMuffin from McDonald's and to be honest, I drank a beer. Had a beer for breakfast just like Johny Cash! I am not a big drinker. The beer was good. Not my favorite, but I wont complain about the taste, which I have tasted much much worse. Speaking of which-don't buy beer from liquor stores. Drink only domestic. I may go back to my Mom's tonight, but I bet I  will end up staying in Norman anyway. Had an "angry" dream last night, but had a couple of good dreams about an individual who screams hatefully about me, a few nights ago. I take that as resolving inner rage and demonstrating that I have made my peace with that individual, even if they do not wish to make their peace with me. I have moved on from that issue and am going to work on the next.

 

     I attend AA from time to time. I am not an alcoholic, but I do enjoy the experience and hearing people's stories and experiences. You can learn a lot in AA. The AA philosophy can also be applied to other things if you change the words, plus I appreciate that it is spiritually based on your "Higher Power as you understand it to be". I decided to have only the one beer and save my money, though I had considered a second one. This morning was some what muggy and today is very muggy too. That is what you can expect with Oklahoma weather. During the morning hours I walked around town and did some free writing. That is how I transited here to the library. I was dripping with sweat upon arriving at my destination. Darn humidity!

 

     I have gained some weight lately (probably from all the walking and lifting as well as my metabolism slowing down) and am always trying to increase it. I weighed in at 156 this morning. I try to maintain at least 160 as opposed to my old 145 approximate weight. I am 5'11 btw.

 

Weather:

Norman, OK- 81*F. Humidity-69%

Pyong Yang (DPRK)- 78*F Humidity- 79% (I have noticed that North Korea's weather isn't that much different than the weather in Oklahoma).

 

     The May 20th tornado directly killed 23 people.

 

Suggested Reading:

-Stephen King's The Stand.

 

From 'The Oklahoman' (08/02/03):

 

*The threat of drought has ended for central Oklahoma. Our recent rains helped put a dent in the drought for the rest of the state.

*Victim dies 73 days after tornado. Elderly lady who received a skull fracture and had a stroke as a consequence of brain surgery has died. This would be the 25th death attributed to the May 20th,2013 Moore tornadoes (unofficially). The original fatality count is 23 with one other indirect fatality.

*Record heat wave continues to grip much of China.
  -People are grilling shrimp on man hole covers.
  -A highway bill board mysteriously caught fire by itself.

*Tulsa mosquitoes test positive for West Nile.

 

Some Stuff in My Life

    
     I must have slept well last night, because I wasn't as tired today as I have been lately. I have been trying to get caught up on sleep I have lost over the last week or so. They say you really cant catch up on sleep debt, but tell my body that. My body likes it when you tell it things... :x  ...I did take short naps today, but they weren't as long as they have been. I felt mostly satisfied with my sleep when I awoke. Lately I have noticed more, that lately I have been talking, shouting out random words, kicking and even moving about in my sleep. As time goes on, it seems like my ability to keep myself immobile while sleeping has become deficient. I expect to be sleep walking soon probably. And this time, I'm not on Ambien. My dream was peculiar. Another bad dream about being abandoned by someone close to me. You may or may not know, I am a diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (before you decide to judge a BP, educate yourself and spare the ignorance). BPD often is connected with abandonement issues that manifest in family and romantic relationships. My father left when I was four months old, and I believe that the roots to this trait lie there.

     Me and my ex significant other are doing well at being friends and we are supporting each other through trials we both are going through right now. She knows I love her and her family, and that will never change. But, life and circumstance and situations do change and when they do we must adapt and accept them. We will not always get what we want in this world. In fact, we are likely to get what we don't want. That is the nature of this life, and when we accept that this world is neither Heaven nor our home, but a training ground for the next world, then we can better be at peace with our temporary troubles and blessings. Don't take life personal, because this isn't your REAL life. Your "real" life exists on a separate spiritual plane with your Higher Power.

Another Short Synopsis  of the End Time Line:

-Worsening world conditions.

-Seven years of Tribulation Begin.

-The two witnesses appear and preach for 3 1/2 years into the Tribulation. They appear in the Holy Land and can not be harmed. Anyone who attempts to harm them will die, by fire that comes from their mouths.

-The Antichrists kingdom begins at the 3 and-a-half mark during the Tribulation. He is given power to destroy the two witnesses, who will lay dead in the street for 3 1/2 days. Then they will be resurrected and ascend into Heaven. This begins the great reign of the AC's kingdom and the start of 'the Great TRIBULATION".

-Seven Judgements (trumpets, vials and bowls).

-The Day of Judgement/Armageddon and the Rapture. The Rapture occurs on the Last Day.

 

7 divided by 2= 3.5 [23, 2+3=5, 5+2=7]. There are two 3.5 year periods in the seven years of Tribulation. Three 2x [32\23]. 11:11 (November to November).

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Where is the throne of God? Is it in the center of the universe? Is it "out there", just beyond the blackness, just beyond the stars? I have had "insights" regarding the 'infiniverse' wrapping around a tower like structure from bottom to top in a spiral, similar to what a barber's pole looks like. I have at times thought of the tower as being the body of God, or a structure supporting the throne of God at the top. More about that will come at a later day.

The Coming Prince (Book) by Sir Robert Anderson:

http://philologos.org/__eb-tcp

 

From the National Weather Service Website (http://www.weather.gov/):

"The Storm Prediction Center has highlighted a large area of severe weather potential from the mid-Mississippi River Valley to the Northeast for Wednesday. Another area of risk has been highlighted in the High Plains. Large hail and damaging winds are the primary threats today. In addition to the severe weather, flash flooding will be possible with heavy rainfall, especially in the Ohio Valley."

 

The current temperature for Oklahoma City is 102 degrees. It is suffocating outside. I have tried staying in air conditioned areas today. Just too hot. And in Oklahoma...this is just the begging of a scorching summer. Stay hydrated people! The current temperature in Norman is 97*, but it feels like 102! I am surprised that is it is only 97.

Forecast:

*A ten nation confederacy will rise out of western Europe (Rome II).