Some Briefs (Boxers or Briefs?)

     There are many synchronicities occurring in my life right now. This is normal for me though. Especially between me and a very good friend of mine, whom I believe God has brought back into my life and is "Speaking" to the both of us. The importance of December 21st, 2012 comes up as well. That date is a hinge point of great change in my life. An apocalypse of my own, remanifested and transformed me in that circa.
   
     We all know about fake news (all of it is fake) and we already know that the media is bought and paid for by the Illuminati/elites. None of it can be trusted. Social Media seems to be the most reliable source of information since it is mostly uncensored (at least briefly) and in real time. I encourage you to follow the news of other countries and compare it to domestic news here, and see how much different reality seems to be depending on who's eyes you are looking for. Climate change is a lie as far as what we are being told about it. Don't think for a moment that the truth of any of this is being given to us. It is all lies. Trust none of it. All media outlets are owned by big business, which in turn is owned by the elites. The media of the world is the propaganda vendor of the special interest groups above.

     Aussie flu has moved into the southern hemisphere where it is causing trouble in some places. This recent flu pandemic is the second worst in our history. Last year 80,000 people died of Influenza int he United States alone. Millions world wide. H3N2 is the dominant A strain. H1NI is the second dominant. Influenza B comes next. Aussie flu is burdening western Australia.

    

Late Christmas Edition

MERRY XMAS!!!
     This is going to  be a new experiment. Since I don't have access to WI WI right now, I will have to journal, then save. When I am "back home" (visiting my Mom for Christmas in Oklahoma City) I will publish this [late]. Today is Christmas Eve. I broke it in with some eggnog. The exact time is 1:40 a.m. I like this time of year because there is always magic in the air and synchronicities abound. I have especially noticed it in the last few days. Due to a set-back last week, I lost about nine days of productivity but it happened for a reason. Everything that happens, happens the way it is supposed to. If you notice magic moving around you and you spot the patterns and realize that synchronicity is trying to tell you something-go with it. Go the way you are guided. We may have storms here on Christmas Day. Interesting. Our planet is a very interesting place to live. Especially in the last few years. At present I am in Oklahoma City, OK. Staying up late. Not on purpose. Sleep issues. I am tired though.
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     I awoke almost at 0900 on  the dot, to find the city smothered in fog. Fogs are best for walking in (driving and flying in-not so much). Everytime there is a heavy fog (doesnt happen often around here) I go it, looking for monsters like in 'Silent Hill' or Stephen King's 'The Mist'. I havent met any yet, but I haven't given up hope. ISIS has a call out for its Lone Wolf supporters to attack churches and other holiday venues over Christmas. I don't need to publicate my opinion here, because I think it conforms with what a majority of good and patriotic Americans feel. With every "attack" and "incident, we become stronger. A little more honed. A little more closer with each other and a lot bit fed up. What ISIS is unaware of, is that it is training us-on how to kill it. Each attack reveals their strategies, tactics, countless intel about their ops. We are not weakening, we are silently becoming stronger. Like a Samurai that trains for years for a  victorious 3 minute confrontation with his nemesis.
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     Went for a walk while it was still foggy. I could only see about 150 feet around me, before my range of sight gave to the foggy encapsulation of my environment. One of the foggiest days I have ever experienced, but not the THE foggiest. Deeper, darker, more mystical fogs are yet out there for me to enjoy.
     Christmas commemorates the birth of Christ. The problem with this date, is that it was chosen because the Pagans already celebrated the birth of the Pagan messiah on Yule. A more likely time frame for Christ's birth would be in the Spring, because the activities of the people around the nativity story conforms to what one would expect of them in the spring time rather than the colder months of winter. Atheists may celebrate a traditional celebration, if they even choose to observe at all. I commemorate it as the Birth of the Messiah, even if the date is wrong, it is traditional and can mean and be expressed in any way you are inspired to. I would like to think that the winter celebrations of the world's faiths (and sciences) are all part of a big Holiday tapestry. Everyone having their own place and role in a greater celebration towards similar beliefs and values world (galaxy?) wide.
     I know that right now there are lone wolf terrorists contemplating something for today and tomorrow and New Years. But, they are going to get quite the surprise if they try anything, because our protective forces are on duty and many watchmen are at their posts. I live in a world where it is almost an every day fact of reality that someone is plotting to kill me or people I care about at this very moment, and they have the intent to carry that out. 17 years ago I would not have even thought about that risk. But today's world is a much different and darker place then it was at the turn of the century. Which doesn't say much-we were far from being considered to be in a good way.
     So Happy Birthday to Isa/Jesus/Yeshua (may peace be upon Him) whatever date you may have been born and in whatever manifestation of it! Next year I will focus on a different divine archetype for the Yule season. The year before last, I used a Krishna theme. Merrry Krishna! It really doesnt feel like much of a Christmas this year. Too many scrooges expecting some imagine entitlement that if they don't receive it, will make everyone around them their taste venom for ruing them. If your holiday sucks, well I'm sorry. I hope it gets better, but don't screw everyone else's up because your miserable. By now, I have probably said a prayer for you. The dog family is here. Keesha, Ringer and Missy (the "kids").
     Tuesday I need to make contact with P&B Staffing to check on any jobs I may be interested in. my next step is to check with the Navy about recruitment. I also plan to check with CSL plasma. My access to internet resources has bountifully increased, so may God shower Steffan with blessings for his generosity, and may He do the same to the Bart Family, whom have also  helped me immeasurably (they are very good people...like the Benfields). In fact if society was full of more people with that type of generosity, we would be goose stepping towards utopia. But everything is as it should be, so let us all do the best we can do and that at least will be enough to get us off in the right direction. Someone once said "the problem with new years resolutions is that after a few days you forget them and they go no where". Those are nay-sayers. They come only to say "nay" and contribute nothing towards the Great aside from a bad attitude. New years is a way of heralding in a better year. A hope to get off on the right foot. Its entirely up to you to decide which foot to put forward (or backwards for some of you).
      I'd rather be the poor but happy kid who wakes up with no toys on Christmas, rather then to be the miserable haunted soul with mountains of cursed gold. The pleasure of life is bitter-sweet, but the satisfaction of bountiful LOVE from the Creator cant even be described. Not even imagined. As people, we are INCAPABLE of understanding or comprehending the spiritual world. But there is overwhelming evidence that GOD is very well present and it in total control. You have no reason to worry, or to be afraid because in the end if you trust God, then you are absolved from the burden of having to fret over your well being. I know that I will die when God wills it. And that my death is just one more birth into a realm better than this (Alhamdulilah). We have TONS of things to look forward to and unbelievable faucet of blessings that people have for some reason, failed to acknowledge. Pride and humility gets in the way. Being prostrate and humbled before God is a very wonderful feeling. If you have not felt it, I invite you to go your church and pray. Synagogue-pray. Mosque-prayer. Cast circle in the wilderness? Whatever gets you linked up with the Great Mind. The Great Mind says to some "I HAVE BEEN HERE THE WHOLE TIME, YOU NEVER NOTICED ME,  UNTIL YOU NEEDED SOMETHING". The Divine wants your attention and love. Is that really so hard? I bet if you did it, that you would never regret it. If you decide to do it, please I would love to hear from you! BrianHill2393@gmail.com I welcome feed back and comments from readers so please share. Thank you!
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     I'm full of Christmas cheer! If you need a little bit, let me know and I will share some with you. Eggnogg is a ceremonial drink. I'm drinking non-alcoholic nogg. It's very nice. A thought about the Antichrist has crossed my mind. I think that it is highly likely that his cloven hoof is making paw prints somewhere on the earth right now. I bet the AntiChrist gets born on Christmas. Isnt that the way it would work out?
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     Opening gifts has passed. I got a huge amount of supplies to hold back for preparation and storage. I will be ready when the event happens whether its a pandemic, revolution, meteor strike, rabid birds, hippies with the munchies, whatever...I know I will survive it (God Willing)
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     Saturday morning. I don't see any presents from Santa Clause-hes probably tied up somewhere late on his route. That's fine. I will continue to eat my breakfast and wait for his bowl full of jelly to come sliding down my chimney. That last line wasn't made to sound like that, but it's kind of funny. You know what? I think I will take me a nap.
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     Woke up from the nap. Called Wendy. I have napped all day and had left overs. Its 9:32 a.m. now and Christmas is almost over. Another holiday survived. Round three: New Years Eve. Many more adventures to come. I just chugged some Z-Quil (Diphenhydramine with 10 percent alcohol). I literally have slept until it was time to go to bed, so now I take a generous dose of sleep OTC. Just what I need is for this to turn into a trip report! The alcohol in the Z Quiel does not violate my religious obligations since the alcohol is in a medical preparation (and I reserve the belief in specific entheogens being placed on earth bu the Great Spirit as tools for harmonic interface with the matrix of nature and reality.
     Right now I am patiently sitting here with a cigarette feeling stuffy and awaiting the DPH to activate. I', listening to ICP and I'm not proud of that, OK?
     =Merry Late Christmas (and Happy Early New Year!
      -Brian Hill (Completed ib January 26th, 2016)

Reminiscing on Boot Camp and Filling With Regret and "Survivor's" Guilt

     Today the weather was warm and decent for winter time. We have been lucky to have this many beautiful days this winter, but I was too warmly dressed so as I went on my errands today I was uncomfortable. After having dinner I walked out side and the smell of the air and the cool, yet warm air gave me a little flash back to boot camp. The ghostly feeling reminded me of standing in formation after evening chow in silence, feeling home sick and depressed. The kind of depression you get when you're 19 and being screamed at by a Drill Instructor re-thinking your motivation to enlist and wondering "what the hell did I get myself into"? That time in Recruit Training as an E-1 was some of the most horrifying and demanding weeks of my life, but at the same time-I miss no other time in my life than those weeks which turned me from a boy into a man. A rite of passage and life experience I will never have again in this incarnation. I still remember my DIs vividly and Samantha (my girlfriend at the time) who was my first real love and who also enlisted to be a Marine, and how my life was just starting. The naivety of my youth and the lies my Recruiter told me that I bought without an ounce of skepticism. What I would do to return to that time period and the life changes I would make. I would be a much different person now. Reader-I don't expect you to understand how I regret now giving my life in the service of my country in the desserts of the Middle East. My greatest regret is not dying a proper hero's death, while so many other gave so much. I live regretting and in decade long guilt that I am alive when so many of my Comrades are not.


     My dinner tonight was macaroni and chilly. The flavor of which reminded me of the food I ate at Marine Corps Recruit Depot-San Diego. The food there was good. I liked it. I like most food anyway, but it didn't compare to a properly made home cooked meal (which I am unable to make). As I am sitting here I am falling into an existential depression. I don't know if it is from the unintentional melancholy of what I am sharing here (this post actually began as an attempt to share a positive experience), or if the darkening evening and approaching night is effecting me. Especially during winter, I seem to become depressed right about the time the sun has set. Nighttime can be a hell for me. Especially as I lay in bed unable to sleep, begging myself to slip into the temporary relief of sleep (assuming my dreams are merciful enough not to present their own mental anguish awakening me to a conscious regret of being alone and amongst the living).


     My religious faith and eternal debt to GOD (Whom has never turned away from me, even when I did) keeps me alive and happy in spite of my selfish self-loathing. Because God has other plans for me, I am here today providing whatever service to Him that I am unaware of. Knowing that some day I will depart this realm to draw closer to His being. Valentines Day is coming up and Sommer recently dumped me, so I will be spending another Valentines Day single and ignored by the female gender.

'The Ghost of You' music video by My Chemical Romance

http://youtu.be/uCUpvTMis-Y

Briantology Numerology

My understanding of the meaning of numbers.

0-None. Absence and non-evidence. The void. Non-existence.

1-Single. Stands alone. Whole. Deity. God.

2-A pair. A couple. Lord and Lady. Deity. God and Goddess.

3-The Trinity. Law of Threes. Things happen in 3s. God Head. Father, Son and the Holy Ghost.

4-Completion. A cycle. Four prayers of Buddhism.

5-Rule of Fives. 2+3=5. Pentacle/Pentagram. The five wounds of Christ (palms and feet pierced and crown of thorns). Magick.

6-Mankind/Man. The Devil. The Antichrist. The Mark of the Beast. 666. 616.

7-God. Perfection. Good luck. 777.

8-Cycles. Eternity.

9-Ego. Self. Important number in LaVeyan Satanism.

10-Good luck. The sum of all basic positive attributes of the Briantology numbers.

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13

+26

=39

My birthday-August 17th, 1984 (08.17.84).

08   -8

17

+84>11

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Everything in the Inifiniverse works in synchronicity with everything else.

    

Happy Tuesday!

     Let me apologize for falling behind in my posts. I just haven't had the motivation to write on here. In fact I have been considering abandoning my blog al together. In the past 30 days Oklahoma has had approximately 86 earthquakes. Kansas has felt the quakes in some instances. Robin Williams died yesterday from apparent suicide. He was 62. The death toll of the Ebola epidemic has just peaked at over 1,000. In some places bodies are being dumped into the streets. Ebola has a small likelihood of spreading in developed nations. Close contact and exposure to bodily fluids Is needed to spread the NON airborne virus. Family members and care takers are those most at risk of getting the infection. Some medical centers in Africa have been decimated due to the non-socomial infection. Today I was supposed to do some work for someone, but I didn't not get up early enough, so I haven't heard back from them. I chose not to get up early for two reasons. 1. I didn't know exactly what time I should have gotten up. 2. I have sleep problems, so when I am able to sleep I try to. Otherwise I may not sleep at all.


     A new 'Terminator' is in the works to be released, leaving me to wonder is the Antichrist going to be a real life Skynet? If you remember the symbol of Skynet being three pyramids forming a great pyramid, you may remember what I previously mentioned from seeing such a symbol in a dream (Pyramid of the Apocalypse/Antichrist). I have continued to see that image in dreams and in the world around me, though I have not had much insight to what it might mean-if anything. It is likely to have been a random dream image that I have mythologized into my own path. But, because of my belief in synchronicity, I continue to study the meaning of the image in case my subconscious is trying to tell me something. I also notice 11:11 continues to pop up. Noticing the time for example, or 12:23 on the clock (0023).

The Great White Brotherhood (mystical NOT racist group and not the cult)

     The GWB has been memorialized by many occult groups including Theosophy. It is said that certain enlightened people such as Jesus belonged to this group and the group can be compared to a "good" Illuminati. The reference to "Great White" is spiritual purity, not racial basis. The perceived goal of this group is to awaken the divinity within each person. Branches of this organization have been established throughout history and throughout the world. Old occult paths and tradition have branched off from this order. One of the goals of the group is to forward the "Divine Plan", which is the plan of God for the world and mankind. This plan includes the spiritual and intellectual development of mankind and society through religious and occult philosophy. They are also responsible for establishing mystical schools of thought (i.e. Rosicrucians, Greek Mystery Schools, Golden Dawn, etc.).  Some members of the brotherhood are alleged to include various Saints, Buddha and other enlightened and humanitarian beings (Baha'u'llah?). The ways that the GWB have changes mankind include humanitarian and spiritual goals, the betterment of life for all living beings and the attainment of spiritual wisdom through mystical practices. Another important figure in their philosophy is the Archangel Michael.

Article Review for the Gospel of Judas

     Storms possible for the OKC metro tonight with possible rain in the morning. I was wrong the other day when I though there would be a tornado outbreak. Maybe one ot two that day, but I doubt it was an outbreak. Quakes continuing as normal, but activity record breakingly high. Today was warm and very windy...this post must be so boring for you to read. It's all dry and boring like the most bare weather report. I don't have much about my personal life at the moment, but that can be a good thing. No news means everything is going steady. No sudden changes to adapt to.

     I have just finished reading The Gospel of Judas. I'm not sure what my opinion of it is. It seems to be as reliable at the other NT Canon, but teaches a whole different thing than the orthoxic scriptures. It should be appreciated for what it is however- a literary work of theological philosophy left up to the interpreter to contemplate for themselves. What I can say is this-I gained a lot from reading the document. I do feel that Judas's side of story should be considered for whatever it's worth. And it might worth as much as Matthew, Mark, Luke or John.

     I always harp on looking for synchronicity in your life. Even if you don't believe in it, what's the harm? You just might have fun, and learn something too. Maybe even discover your Higher Power if you haven't already done so, or gain an interesting experience with the laws of physics itself.  

Diamonds and Triangles and the Blessings of Youth

     I don't know if I already mentioned it or not-that I got my two month sobriety chip from AA. I attend meetings at Norman Original Group in Norman, OK. Had Thanksgiving with the family of a friend which was really nice. I enjoyed it. I always enjoy eating. I am almost out of groceries and SNAP doesn't come for me until the 10th. Tomorrow I am supposed to see my Mom, so she will likely bring me food. I am making due until then. I am very resourceful and do well under extreme conditions. That makes me a good survivalist. Someone to have on your team when the rains come.

     Some of the things that I seek to do are to encourage creativity, wisdom and free expression in youth. I am interested in becoming a youth minister, however the Bahai Faith has no ministry, so my ministry is my service to my society and the youth of this society and world. I also enjoy getting little gifts from the children of friends and within my family. Even a small picture of hand maid trinket is far more valuable to me then something bought in a store-especially when it comes from the heart. I like to teach and challenge them and be challenged and taught by them. Two youths whom I recently was able to care for taught me much.

12 Days from now: December 14th, 2013.
12 Days Ago: November 20th, 2013.

Christmas is on December 25th and last Thursday was Thanksgiving. January will begin the President's sixth year in office.

Is Sasquatch really a Chewbaka?

 

-Brian Hill

 December 2nd, 2013 (1 A.A.)

 BrianHillMA@hotmail.com

405.215.5085 (feel free to text me)

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Diamonds and Triangles

     I have seen an interesting triangle symbol in a dream that I had as well as having noticed the same symbol popping up from time to time. And as someone who follows synchronicity and the universes messages-I naturally take note. The dream that the symbol appeared in was apocalypse related and the symbol represented either the eschaton or the Antichrist. The symbol resembles a large triangle composed of three other triangles (Three 3's). The pyramid is also the symbol of the Illuminati. I had the dream over a year ago I believe, but have noticed the reappearance of the symbol. The symbol is also related to a diamond in a way that I won't get in to here. The diamond being a symbol of the AC (at least in the dream) has lead me to look for Antichrist patterns related to the diamond.

 

     A few years ago a personality appeared on the Internet by the name of John Titor, who claimed to be a time traveler from the future and brought with him some details of the future that haven't materialised. One example is that in 2005 (?) America would be involved in an nuclear war. And it doesn't appear that we were. He also claimed that at the age of 13 he joined a militia group called the Fighting Diamondbacks. There is also Diamondback Tactical for those who like to arm themselves in cool weapons and tactical gear (militia related?). The Correctional Corporation of America, a private prison company, has a prison here in Oklahoma called Diamondback Correctional Facility. Could the Antichrist be a company? I doubt it. Most likely he is comes from the political system rather than a corpocracy. A diamondback is also a snake (serpent). The devil allegedly appeared to Eve in the Garden of Eve in the guise of a snake. Was he a diamondback maybe?

 

     Could the Beast be related to the diamondback somehow? There are a few loose points I listed above. They don't prove anything, but they do make material for consideration...or maybe not? Tribulation (Tri-) and Triangle (Tri-). Tri=three letters.

 

The triangle is complete. The Tribulation can now begin.

 

Links:

EBS Scenario for Nuclear Attack Scenario from Asian launch (Colorado)

 



 

The Number "11 11", the Government of the Beast and Threat of the Bird Flu?

     The LORD saw how great man's wickedness on the earth had become, and that every inclination of thoughts of his heart was only evil all of the time. The LORD was grieved that he had made man on the earth, and his heart was filled with pain.     -Genesis 6:5-6

     ..."Never again will I curse the ground because of man, even though every inclination of his heart is evil from childhood".     -Genesis 8:21    

     Been having "hostile" dreams lately. Probably a reflection of pent up negative feelings that I cant constructively get rid of. I  don't have anyone with whom I can talk to, or an outlet for those emotions. So they just manifest in my dreams. A lot of that anger I am sure is directed at authority figures. I have never really been fond of authority (go figure).

11 11:

*"11 11" seems to be a global synchronistic event.

 

*My interpretation of "11 11"- Occult number (the mysteries). Synchronistic number. During the 12/21/12 phenomenon, some theorised that a cosmic event would occur at 11:00 a.m and 11:00p.m. or 11:11 UT. There was a theory that on December 21st, 2012 the Rapture of the Dead would occur at 11:11 a.m. followed by the Rapture of the Living at 11:11 p.m. (Jerusalem local time).

 

     If you notice this number (11 11) appear in connection with an interesting or unusual situation, consider the possibility that your Guardian Angel may be trying to make contact with you. What message do you believe he is trying to send? Another theory is that this number is capable of "unlocking" your DNA (which twists in a spiral-Each parent contributes 23 chromosomes to their offspring)/ to be "awakened". Edgar Cayce (?) also believed the number represented oneness with God.

 

Candidates for the Governments of the Beast:

Jehovah's Witness View on the United Nations (also the League of Nations): http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jehovah's_Witnesses_and_the_United_Nations

 

European Union Seat '666' to be filled by AntiChrist:

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/End%20of%20the%20World/seat_666.htm

Clyde Lewis is Recovering from Surgery Due to Cancer:

http://www.groundzeromedia.org/clyde-is-recovering-from-surgery/

 

Here is Clyde's Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/groundzeroradio

Clyde has taken time off from his radio program due to a cancerous tumor in his kidney. He has had bouts with cancer before. Clyde will be in my prayers and I hope that you all will like wise pray for him!

 

Randy Travis Suffers Stroke and Is In Critical Condition:

http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20716513,00.html

 

After surgery to release pressure on his brain, following a stroke, he remains in critical condition. I will be saying a prayer for his recovery and I ask that you do the same. We have a lot of people to be praying for!

 

New Bird Flu Strain in China Could Spark Pandemic:

http://host.madison.com/wsj/news/local/health_med_fit/uw-madison-study-new-bird-flu-in-china-could-cause/article_fe1ac2d7-3a70-5c6f-ab06-4b0bce4a4b95.html

 

Prayers and Blessings and Updates On Me

That one indeed is a man who, today, decideth himself to the service of the entire human race. The Great Being saith: Blessed and happy is he that ariseth to promote the best interests of the peoples and kindreds of the earth.     -Baha'u'llah    

      Back in Norman today, to take care of some more business. I have had some great developments in my life recently. A shout out to that special someone of whom my heart belongs. Your prayers for me last week went answered and I will be needing more in the months ahead. Thank you for those prayers and good thoughts. I am sending mine out to you too. I donate plasma twice a week when able. Not in as big a need for money, but the plasma goes to people who need it, and that is a positive contribution I try to make. I try to effect the world in as much of a positive way as possible. I am not trying to brag, just sharing my ministerial activities in hopes that I can inspire others to do the same. I don't seek t do good to get credit or recognition, but to give glory to God who deserves all praise. Do not be proud for me, be proud for God and seek to do the same things in your own way. If everyone did their part to make the world a better place and to offer service to God, this world would be an infinitely better one.

     I continue to see synchronicity in life all the time. It reminds me that God is ever present and communicates with us, when we will stop log enough to listen. 23s are ever present (I am sitting at library computer 32 right now and that was unintentional) as is 216. When I see the number 216 I take the time to ask myself if that is God trying to tell me something. Lately I have felt the Holy Spirit's presence with the burning chest manifestation a couple of times this last week presenting one with a revelation and twice with the sensation of love. I used to get the sensation much more often, but as our faith grows, I believe that those obvious manifestations of God can diminish only because God wants us to have faith in His presence rather than having to constantly remind us. But, how great would that be to always feel the presence of God and the Holy Spirit? Months ago it was an almost constant feeling with me. I walked with a euphoric high. I can understand what people mean when they say they are "high on Jesus".

     I keep having a repetitive dream. In essence it should be good (because the dream is a quite happy one with a positive setting), but it is a dream of something I long for, but can not have. So upon waking I am despaired that it was only a dream. Some nights I continue to yell out in my sleep. I have also yelled out the name "Shawna" who is the little sister of a friend of mine. I seem to be looking for her in my dream. Calling out to her. What in the world could it mean? It doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me. Some of you would like this blog to be more personal and about me. I will do my best to apply that. If you want to know me better you can always email me at BrianHillMA@hotmail.com or look me up on Facebook with that same email address or search for "Brian James Hill in Oklahoma City" on FB.

     There are some opportunities for me to enter the Ministry or attend Pastoral training. I am seriously considering this. Either taking the Pastoral training through a Non-Denomination church or attending a Divinity school or seminary. Not only would it help here with the blog, but I could serve in the clergy or even begin my own ministry. Today the Supreme Court struck down DOMA and Proposition 8. This allows same sex marriage to continue in California.

     Isn't is a great thing to be in love and with your life companion? To know that person will make a great parent to your children and that there is great hope for a wonderful family in the future? It is one of the greatest and fulfilling feelings to have. A family is such a great gift from God. I can think of no other worldly desire than to have a happy and loving family. That would make me truly happy. Kids make me so happy to be around. Even when they aren't my own. I am a care taker and love to take care of children. They always put a smile on my face and remind me that love is a very real and powerful thing. Soon I will begin working on a fictional series of books narrating end time events (sort of similar to the Left Behind series, but unique in its own ways). I will likely release bits and pieces from the books here on my blog when they become available. Speaking of which, I have just finished reading Desecration from the Left Behind Series. Good book. A lot of it is filler and I am starting to get the feeling that as the books progress the authors got sort of lazy and starting breezing through certain events (for example in Desecration there is brief mention of the plague of boils on the receivers of Nicolai's mark and the oceans turning into blood). But, the ending is a cliff hangar and I cant wait to start the next book. I am likely to be done with the entire adult series of books soon. Next I will start on the children's series.

Prayer and Blessing List:

This is a list of people whom are on my prayer list. If you would like to pray for, or bless these people as well I am sure it would be appreciated. Even if you don't know these people's names (some initials have been changed), God does!

-S.M. and Family: I think of you all often and will never stop loving you. Kids- I am so proud of the people you are and I hope you know how much I love you and miss you, and feel so proud of you. You all will always have a home in my heart. I wish you well with your goals and living the lives you strive to live.
-P.P.T.: May you be blessed and may you follow the directives of God and live a good life.
-B. Thank you for your kindness. You are an awesome person. Congratulations on the baby and I wish the best for the both of you! Kids are a gift from God. I am so jealous!
-K.M.C.: I hope the surgery goes well and that there is no need for more and that you are healed and the healing stands as a testimony to the Glory of God. May the current difficulties in  your life be lifted and everything go well and easy for you and your family. May they be blessed as well.
-Jessica R. and your Grandmother: I pray that you will be comforted by the Holy Spirit and that your Grandmother will be comfortable, health and happy and will do well.

Spiritual Tip: Use your community and your resources to better the world through your own spiritual understanding. Take every advantage  to spread love and minister to the people around you. The theme today is to make the world a better place through your own actions. No deed is too small to make a HUGE impact.