I Found You

Heavy in a cloud of melancholy I stumbled onto the bus and somberly handed the bus driver my CART pass so that he (with a frown) could punch the appropriate number of holes in my bus pass. Thunder clapped and grey clouds gathered about my person when happen chance I should glance down the aisle and see a little black girl (I mention her race to highlight her genetic beauty not as a form of discrimination) of about 2 years old who doesn't know me from Elijah. We make eye contact and she smiles as if she has been waiting to see me all day and furiously begins waving. The sun suddenly shines and the clouds part and I repay the gesture with a goofy smile and a silly wave. Because all morning I have been waiting to see her...I just didn't know it until that moment.

I wana look LIke and Anime Character!

     I wonder who the first person to ever think up sky diving was? And how exactly did they come up with the idea? Were they peering down from an air plane window and thought "what would really be fun, would be to leap from this airplane and hurtle towards the earth at 130 mph!". And how many times did they do it before they got the parachute design right (and how many "test dummies" did they go through)? Studies seem to confirm that Oklahoma's earthquakes are in fact man-made (although we seem to be going through a world wide increase in seismic activity), I am finally convinced this is not a natural event and that yes-humans are responsible for this. As you may know, I am of the school of thought that is careful to blame humans for what is going on in the world. I feel like we aren't as much of an impact on nature as we like to give ourselves credit for. Several of my friends have been going through some tough times and tribulations. I have been saying prayers for them and if you care as well, would you send positive thoughts and prayers their way too? You may not know who they are or what they are facing, but Allah knows.


     Soon will be getting a dental redo, God willing. I also am suffering from vision problems (not having a whole lot of luck finding a remedy for that one). I am looking in to a free clinic in OKC that does vision care. I am in need of it badly-and have been since my Optometrist leaped from a highway over pass, thus ending my eye care (and his life). What's wrong with my vision? Well I cant see shit. Know the 'E' on the top of the vision chart? Well when I was a Medical Assistant and administered the eye chart test to patients, I had to stand close to the chart...I still couldn't see the damn thing unless I got some what close. I want glasses to spectacular that they make my eyes so big looking I resemble an anime character! Yeah! Preferably one from one of those hentais! ;p But really, if I close my left eye, I can't even recognize faces with just my right eye. And night vision...forget it.  Who knows...maybe it will fix itself? Maybe...

The Helter that Never Did Skelter

     Lots and lots of rain and storms for Oklahoma these past couple of weeks, and more to come! Quakes continue (which at this point is no surprise). Nepal has been devastated by a 7.6 quake followed by numerous after shocks including a 7.3. I have been reading Vince Bugliosi and Curt Gentry's 'Helter Skelter'. I usually don't like reading true crime books, but this one interested me for a variety of reasons. One is the cult leader Charles Manson, whom at one time I only considered to be crazy but now believe he was demonically influenced and was likely to be a minor antichrist. There was obviously nothing godly about him. Also, I was interested in Manson's erroneous yet frighteningly specific views of the end of the world and Helter Skelter (race war he believed would be fought between the whites and blacks and ultimately won by the blacks). I have been analyzing Revelation 9 as well as the music of the Beatles using his method, and while I don't see where he got his opinions regarding the "revelations" in the music of the Beatles, his interpretation of Revelation 9 is rather interesting-almost convincing, but again demonstrates the Rorschach phenomenon of the Book of Revelations that almost anything can be taken from it with enough ingenuity and imagination.


     On the same note about our weather. Today marks the second anniversary (I cant believe it has been two years already!) since the F5 tornado destroyed my home town of Moore (for the second time). Just a few weeks ago, Moore was once again devastated by a tornado, leading me to declare Moore as "Moore-nado alley". Yesterday, multiple tornadoes touched down in both Oklahoma and Texas.


"The Revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave Him to show His servants—things which must shortly take place." (NKJV Revelation 1:1)


How long is "shortly"? Some of the events in Revelation may have already taken place. Some can be argued to be taking plane NOW, and some are yet to be seen. I believe that overall the Book of Revelation is a spiritual/historical document of events on the spiritual background of the events of the Bible.

LINKS:

*Charles Manson's song 'Sick City'

*Oklahoma Flu Deaths Stand at 113 (record breaking for state)

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Returning to School Very Soon

     Continuing to deal with the drama of drug addicts and lunatics. I had to throw out yet another individual who refused to leave. Why is my home so great, that people flock there to settle in? Can't call the police, because frankly, I don't trust this town's PD. Because of the problems at my apartment complex, I will be moving out in June once my lease is up. I haven't found another complex yet. I need something that costs as much or less than what I am paying now. I am continuing my job search and put in an application at a book store yesterday. Time allotting, I will be doing a follow up call to a plasma donation center I recently applied at as well. In the past I have even applied at Little Cesar's Pizza, Arby's, and other fast food establishments, but have yet to even get a job there. I am planning to go to school ASAP to get my Peer Recovery Support Specialist certification as well as considering getting my unarmed security guard license again.

Links:

'Pursuit of Happiness' Music Video-Kid Cudi

Is This As Good As It's Going to Get?

     What a poopy few weeks. Depression and anxiety as well as physical illness with no identifiable cause, and now I have a painful tenderness in my neck near my throat, making swallowing painful. Last week, my home town was again hit by a tornado, while other parts of Oklahoma were simultaneously afflicted. At least one school in Moore was damaged (and our Governor opposes storm shelters in public schools, because she is an idiot). I have lost all hope at getting any kind of decent job, and in the past few days have been wondering...at this point in my life-is this as good as it is going to get? I turn 31 on August 17th, and in one year I have accomplished NOTHING. I am juggling the idea of moving into a new apartment complex or out of Norman entirely, because of the paranoia, bigotry and even hate I see growing daily here. Currently we have some storms out west, but tornadic conditions don't seem to be a current issue. Last year, we had a nearly dead tornado season. I wonder what this one will look like?


     More people have died this year of the flu in Oklahoma then ever before, since records began being kept in 2009 (why did they not start keeping records until then?). It seems to continue to linger, even now into spring. I wonder if it will make it through summer. the 1918 killer flu began in spring time and stayed around through summer. That flu killed more people than the black death. I would not be surprised if the flu is becoming more lethal than previous years. The last few years have had bad influenza experiences. As for Ebola-don't think it has gone away...its just that the media have found "more interesting" things to focus on. Cases have just topped 25,000! An Ebola vaccine is currently in the works. I am skeptical that it will be very effective at first, until there are multiple trials to "work out the bugs". This outbreak has blown the previous ones out of the water. Keep your eyes to the heavens for blood, smoke and mist.


     Are you familiar with the book Heaven is for Real? The boy in the story has since revealed that the account is a lie and was cooked up by his father. Although this is one NDE story that has been declared false, it does not in any way effect my belief in God, or the after life. As I write this, we are getting deeper into storm watches. I am always looking forward to storms and hope to see an impressive one, though I doubt I will ever see one like in May 2013! I walked from Norman 7 miles to Moore to check on loved ones, witnessing the ruins of the town I grew up in, I could not help but feel like we were speeding into the Tribulation, but I will say that my views concerning the 'unveiling' have radically changed in the last couple of years and for the most part have become a Preterist. The third blood moon is coming on the 4th in time for Passover, and rumor has it that tomorrow will be another near earth asteroid fly by.

The Day the Abyss Wasn't Opened

    


     Today CERN (Large Hedron Collider) was supposed to re-start (and some worry warts were concerned this would result in earth being swallowed by a man-made black hole or gates of Hell being flung open). However, the event was re-scheduled.  I myself am not at all worried, since last time it was turned on this didn't happen. Some people connected it with the alleged prophetic event total solar eclipse to occur in five days, and the Passover blood moon (third in the tetrad series that began last year) on April 4th. Some connect those events to the prophecies of Revelation and Joel and other books of the Bible, heralding the coming day of Judgment from God:


And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood;...     -Revelation 6:12 (KJV)


The sun shall be turned to darkness, and the moon to blood, before the great and awesome day of the Lord comes.      -Joel 2:31 (English Standard Version)


If you're interested in learning more than read John Hagee's book Four Blood Moons: Something is About to Change.


     From time to time on here, I mention my sleep problems. Last night I woke myself up several times talking in my sleep. I wish I knew what it was I was saying. Also had recent sleep paralysis experiences again. I wonder why they are ALWAYS horrifying. Why cant I be paralyzed and having puppies licking me, rather than hell-beasts using my limbs in some infernal game of tug-of-war? Oh well, like I always say-at least I'm not in jail. Anything is better than that. I am returning to my fast in connection with the 19 Day Baha'i Fast. I had to take a Sabbatical (ha ha get it! Sabbatical?!) in lieu of an upper respiratory infection (which in its own way contributed to a increased level of spiritual awareness through increased bodily temperature, decreased food intake and OTC medicine.


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"When doubts haunt me, when disappointments stare me in the face, and I see not one ray of hope on the horizon, I turn to Bhagavad-gita and find a verse to comfort me; and I immediately begin to smile in the midst of the overwhelming sorrow. Those who meditate on the Gita will derive fresh joy and new meanings from it every day."
     -Mahatma Gandhi

The Book of 2 Brian Hill

The Book of Brian Hill 2

I.
1. At the end, on Judgment Day, all will be judged accordingly. Some will be forgiven. Some will be sent back to begin a new (..?..) and to get a new chance to work through their spiritual progressions.
2. I acknowledged my sin unto thee, and my iniquities have I not hid: I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the Lord; and thou forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah. [1.]
3. Be kind to strangers. Be kind to your brothers and sisters in humankind. God may visit you, Christ may visit you, but you may not know it. He will come in disguise to test you. Feed the hungry, cloth the naked and heal the sick. Because any person you encounter could be Jesus/God in disguise!
4. I see the signs of the end times. It is ok.  The Day of the Lord is coming and I anxiously await it. I know I will witness it. I hope that it is soon. I believe that it might be soon.
5. When the Tribulation arrives, people will get in their shelters to hide from the wrath of God. Important governors and politicians will retreat to facilities built in the mountains. They will shout to the mountains "cover me, prrotect me, for the wrath of Jehovah is at hand! Hide me from His eyes!".
6. But, even in those places, they shall be shaken. The angel of death will visit them. The plagues will be increased against those who abandon their responsibilities toward the people and who run from the pestilences.
7. The symptoms of the coming Plague are fever, body aches, a dry cough, sweating, nausea, vomiting and diarrhea, and is highly contagious.
8. 1948 (Founding of the modern state of Israel)
    +
    70 (suggested number of years for a generation)
  =2018 (Era of the Tribulation?)


By 2020, biblical prophecies could be on their way to being fulfilled.
9. Is the Emerald City in The Wizard of Oz a metaphor for the City of New Jerusalem?
Christ says 'Behold, I am coming soon!'.


II.
1. After Judgment, the damned will stand at the right hand of God. They will witness the opening of Hell. But, when the Saints come to judge them-the sinners will be forgiven!
2. Only the Devil and his accomplices will remain in Hell. Many people will be found damned.


III.
1. 15x2=30x4=120
2. This is the End.
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Foot Notes
[1.] Psalm 32:5 (KJV 1611 slightly modified to fit modern vernacular)