A Short Story About My Recovery

     My recovery has been a long journey. It has gone on as long as I have been on this earth. But I am thankful for it…why? Because I could have been afflicted with a worse fate. Some people (may peace be upon them) suffer from genetic disorders or cancer, paralysis or any number of horrible conditions, I count my blessings and give thanks to the  Great ‘I AM’ (God) that he has blessed me with legs that walk, eyes to see and ears to hear, a heart that loves and ears to hear, etc. God bless and be with those with greater burdens than my own.

    It began about the age of 12 or 13 with symptoms of OCD. I recognized it immediately and kept it a secret for many years. Luckily eventually I told my Physician who was able to put me on a medication that has mostly caused the OCD to go into remission. At the age of about 15 and a half, I began to experience deep depression, but I could not connect it to any specific cause. It just seemed to appear and plague my every conscious moment. It was just there one day and it crippled me. I lost motivation and even went periods of time on little food from lack of appetite.  I isolated myself and even had suicidal thoughts. When I graduated from High School and enlisted in the Marines. I was discharged and given a ‘Entry Level Separation’ while still in boot camp for reasons related to my condition. To this day I continue to pursue enlistment in the military. Currently I am in contact with a Recruiter from the National Guard. I struggled through my 20s with depression and anxiety but all glory belongs to Jehovah that I did not ever successfully cause my own death. I found my current faith in August of 2011. I joined the Baha’i Faith and pursued a relationship with God and even had a spiritual experience that changed my life in about the fall of 2012.  God has saved me from the Adversary (myself) that I could not overcome on my own. He has led me to better people and a better life. In the lunar calendar it takes 28 days for the moon to complete one cycle and become a new moon. It is interesting that I became a new man at the age of 28 after having completed a self destructive cycle in my life and began true recovery. My reasons have given me happiness and a reason to stay alive. I could never again entertain the idea of suicide again, because I know that God loves me and wants me alive because he has a will for me. To commit a suicidal act contradicts what God’s will for me is. So I must work on myself in a positive way and follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit and those teachers who have come into my life. I must focus on doing good and working to make society a better place.

     Transition House has helped me immensely. More than any other resource (excluding the institutions of God) and has given me a routine and needed structure as well as neighbors and a roommate who contributes to the development of my social skills. I have been given access to many resources that I have used to better myself and taken steps to forward my goals. Thank you Mary, Bonnie, Candice and the other people of Transition House who have provided me with role models who have positively contributed to my recovery. May God bless them and all associates of Transition House!

 

     -Sincerely Brian Hill

      April 25, 2014

Two Days Until the Blood Moon

     Not much to share regarding my personal life except that I may be moving soon. Staying in the same damned city though. As I write this there are just under 48 hours until the blood moon which I think may bring about a war with Israel. Seven days prior to the blood moon was an alignmentt of the sun, earth and Mars. There appears to be a 0% chance of a peace treaty being signed between Israel and Palestine...big suprise there. The weather forecast for Oklahoma is erratic as usual with rain through today and the possibility of snow on Monday.

     I frequently plug 'Illuminatus!' here in my blog and am continuing to suggest you read it if you havent. Already. It's one of my favorite books, and would be of interest to others sharing an interest in the eschaton, conspiracies and the Illuminati. I'm also re-reading the 'Left Behind' series for the umpteenth time.

     At the moment it is 3:43 A.M. and I am listening to Simon and Garfunkle. I listen to a very eclectic. Range of music and enjoy music almost as much as books. Right now it is windy outside and we have already got a brief sprinkeling of rain. I am ready for storms, but I think we will have a brief, but powerful storm season. I wobder if Moore will get another tornado. I wonder if Norman will ever get hit by a tornado. It has already been the area for at least a few earthquakes in the past, which brings up the fact that Oklahoma has been very active seismicaly and as t
ime goes on, our quake activity seems to increase.

     I wonder when I might see my friend Bob again. Long stretches of time go between visits since we live in entirely different counties. I have been smoking more than usual. I am out of e-cig juice, so I have been trying to keep my smoking limited. Laundry needs to be done, but it is hard around here with no easy access laundry facility. So I have my mom do it for me. Gave her a load a couple of days ago and when I see her again she will get another. I am hoping we do get storms today, but I don't know if they will actually hit my areaor not. We will likely only get some rain and wind. In reality I don't even really expect snow, but I am sure that Monday will be cold and rainy. Good thing I haven't put away my hoodies yet. You can never be sure when winter has really passed around here.

     Tomorrow will probably be cold. Right now is good westher to be out walking in, if you have some place to walk around. Norman is a good town for walking in. Very safe here. Today is Sunday, but I won't be attending religious services. Likely will catch up on sleep instead. I have had very unhealthy sleep lately. No other real plans for tomorrow. Will likely remain in my corner of town and make the most of the weather and do some reading and DVD watching.

Pre-Blood Moon Edition

     The Blood Moon Tetrad begins in 10 days. Some people believe that the Rapture will happen in correspodence with. The blood moon. I think that this is a bit dramatic. I myself believe that the Rapture occurs at the time of Judgement, rapturing the saved to be with Messiah in Heaven while the damned are judged on earth. I do believe that the blood moon will a significant event for Israel. Could it mean war? The Abomination of Desolation? I am of the belief that the Rapture occurs after the time of Tribulation. I also believe that the Abomination that causes desolation has already occured once shortly after the crucifixion of Christ and that it will occur a second time during the reign of the coming antichrist. Christ mentions in Mathew (Joseph Smith Translation) that the abomination occurs twice.

      The flu epidemic in the United States appears to be coming to an end here and making its appearance in Australia, where I believe that it will hit hard there. Here in the Oklahoma Metro area we seem to be experiencing an epidemic of infectious gastroenteritis and possible bacterial respiratory illness. In China, Taiwan and Hong Kong there have been cases of bird flu, though promise of a multi-strain vaccine may be made available in China by the end of this year or early next. The current strain of bird flu seems to be rather lethal, especially in men for some reason.

      This year seems to be a record breaking year for earthquakes in Oklahoma with more quakes so far felt this year, then all of last year. If you look over the past few years you will notice that disasters have been occuring more frequently and more destructively with each following year. Yesterday four tornadoes touched down in north Texas as tornado season has begun. I think that this year's season will be worse than last years.

     Oklahoma is on its way to the legalisation of marijuana and same-sex marriage. America's civil rights have been progressing steadily under President Obama's leadership. Hong Kong has been experiencing freak weather and a few days ago Chile experienced a very large earthquake. In Russia there seems to be worsening of the situation over Ukraine while there are military movements and the chance of another foreign invasion by Russia. China is benefiting from the situation. In North Korea Supreme Leader Kim Jong Un has purged another member of his cabinet which seems to be his answer to Mao's own purge.

      Is the Antichrist already on the world scene and if so, who is he? I think that it is impossible to say right now and may remain so until the desolation that causes abomination. It is likely that he is not even in the world spot light right now. Some people believe that Prinnce Charles is the AC, which I disagree with since I see no reason to consider him over any other candidates at the current time. Prince Charles has no real political power at this time and I can't really see him as becoming the political leader of a revived Roman Empire. The missing Malaysian plane may be emitting a transponder signal from the ocean bottom, but I can't help but wonder if this is not a ruse to cover up something else.

Expectations For Spring?

What Kind of Spring Should We Expect?
Some "predictions" by Brian Hill reffe2ring to the Spring tine period of 2014
Principly Oklahoma

      Short and dramatic storm season. Likely to be worse than last years and will be note worthy. We will get a storm unlike anything seen before. Moore, OK will face troubles again. The bad season will peak in late spring early summer, but shoulld be brief. Around or on the 15th of April will be many interesting things hsppening in the sky.
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     The Ebola out break will soonn peak and stop spreading and will probably see its end by the end of the year. The Los Angelas 5.1 earthquake is a precursor to a stronger quake to come. There is something going seismic occuring around the U.S. west coast. The 29th may be the last opportunity to reach peace between Israel and Palestine.

Asteroid to Pass Earth Today

     Today the previously mentioned asteroid passes by earth...or crashes into it. I expect it to pass like so many others, but one will get us eventually. In fact, it is believed that the first asteroid discovered this year has already hit the earth, likely burning up in the atmosphere. Influenza cases are still around, but winding down, while bird flu is once again spreading in China, raising fears of a coming pandemic. The Malaysian flight that disappeared a few days ago still hasn't shown up...no signs what-so-ever. Oil slicks originaly believed to have been related to the crash site are now believed to be unrelated. It is beggining to look more and more like a terrorist attack, but that has yet to be confirmed. Some people believe that aliens took the plane or it disapeared into some kind of Bermuda Triangle. I go out on a limb sometimes myself, but I think this one has a more common answer.

     As for my life I am happy to report having met someone that I really like and am happy being around. That is a positive change for me.

If My Life Was a Book...
It would be 'The Illuminatus Trilogy' by Robert Anton Wilson.
If you know me and you have read the book...you would understand why.

 

The Redvolution: http://mixedknuts.wordpress.com/2011/04/11/ban-jace-propaganda-poster-contest/

Asteroid Impact Hazard for March 11th

Approximately 1.5 Days Until Possible Asteroid Impact
On March 11th, an 80 story sized asteroid with an unpredictable path will come near the earth. The asteroid is considered to be a possible impact hazard, but we won't know for sure until it passes (or hits us). Fireballs caused by meteors have increased in the past few days and is expected to continue through until the 16th at least.

#23
~I have 23 contacs in my phone.
~I have the movie '23' on the book shelf in my living room.
~The above mentioned asteroid was lost at least 230 times as it has been tracked.
~A Malaysian airliner 777 has disapeared for unknown reasons while traveling to China. There were 238 passengers aboard.

Asteroid Fly By Today...but what if?

     Exciting new things are in the works for me. You know who you are ;). I am finally over the flu (I think). After almost a MONTH of being sick. Speaking of which, flu season is winding down now that we have passed the peek. The Russians have invaded the Ukraine and tested an ICMB missile. Speaking of missiles, North Korea has been active over the past few days firing missiles into the ocean. Saturday Night Live says they did this in retaliation for a wave that knocked Kim Jong Un over. As of writing this, an asteroid has already or will soon pass close to the Earth. Closer than the moon. Near earth asteroids seem to be a more common occurrence in the last couple of years (along with earthquakes in Oklahoma) which leads me to the next part...

Asteroid Fly By Today 

     The asteroid passing by today is expected to fly by harmlessly. But what would happen if it did hit? The resulting explosion would be more powerful than the atomic bomb exploded over Hiroshima. Remember the meteorite that exploded over Russia last year? That was 30 times more powerful than the above mentioned atomic bomb, and that was an air burst that resulted in the injury of 1,500 people and property damage. Had it landed in a major metropolitan area it would have destroyed an entire city resulting in thousands or possibly millions of deaths and untold destruction and environmental catastrophe. The debris, ash and smoke released during the blast would cloud the atmosphere dropping the amount of sun light that would reach earths surface, causing nuclear winter and the eventual deaths of plant life and animals and possibly world wide famine.

 

Then the fifth angel sounded, and I saw a star from heaven which had fallen to the earth; and the key of the bottomless pit was given to him. He opened the bottomless pit, and smoke went up out of the pit, like the smoke of a great furnace; and the sun and the air were darkened by the smoke of the pit.

     -Revelation 9:1-2

 

     If such a meteorite landed in the ocean it would create a tsunami that would devastate coastal areas and destroy ports, harbors and maritime fleets and countless ocean life. Depending on the content of the meteor that would play another factor. Comets are composed of mostly rocky material and ice (and are potential harbingers of "space microbes" that could result in the introduction of a never before seen plague. Asteroids are often composed of iron. A large enough asteroid with a rich enough iron content could literally dye the ocean crimson red, giving the seas the appearance of blood.

 

The first sounded, and there came hail and fire, mixed with blood, and they were thrown to the earth; and a third of the earth was burned up, and a third of the trees were burned up, and all the green grass was burned up. The second angel sounded, and something like a great mountain burning with fire was thrown into the sea; and a third of the sea became blood, and a third of the creatures which were in the sea and had life, died; and a third of the ships were destroyed.…

    -Revelation 8:7-9

 

     It is not a matter of if, but when we are struck from space. We know that these things have happened many times before, in the past and we can be sure that we can expect them again in the future. Just look at what transpired on 2/15/2013.

 

 

**Un-Fun Fact: Chicago is the murder capital of the world!**