I have had a great last few days hanging out with a couple of friends until it ended in nightmarish heart ache. Especially S.P. whom I always have a great time with and look forward to seeing her whenever she feels like spending time with me, except maybe I had illusions about what our "relationship" meant. I had my heart played with and tossed around and this happens too much to me. And on top of that my other "friend" asks me if he can be with her since it didn't work out between me and her. What kind of a friend asks that? Why do I seem to let shitty people gravitate into my life? I am such a stupid idiot I trust people and try to help them and they step on me and break me down. Well I am starting to hate people way to much. Finding motivation to show them love anymore is really becoming a challenge and it seems like I am using every ounce of my strength from giving in to hate and hurting them.
At the moment I am spending the evening with a young lady whom seems to appreciate me, but I won' entertain false ideas. It's just a matter of time before she sleeps with one of my friend or stabs me in the back. I have been so tested lately that I don't even feel safe being alone anymore.
Another Earthquake in Oklahoma:
http://kfor.com/2014/12/04/3-4-earthquake-rattles-central-oklahoma-overnight/
'Eerie Quiet' At Cascadia Faults in Nevada. Recent tremors:
http://www.oregonlive.com/pacific-northwest-news/index.ssf/2014/12/is_the_eerie_quiet_at_nw_earth.html
Olivet Students To Spend Winter Break Helping After the 2003 Tornado that Nearly Destroyed Moore, OK:
http://www.wwmt.com/news/features/top-stories/stories/Olivet-students-headed-to-Oklahoma-to-help-rebuild-following-2013-tornado-61790.shtml#.VIJDhk0tCUk
WHO Declares Ebola Outbreak in Spain 'Over':
http://www.who.int/mediacentre/news/statements/2014/spain-ends-ebola/en/
CDC Sends Out Apology Because This Year's Vaccine Doesn't Work:
http://www.naturalnews.com/047890_flu_vaccines_CDC_apology_medical_fraud.html
'Call Upon Your Gods' Music Video by Dark Lotus:
http://youtu.be/BizXyE8oivk
At the moment I am spending the evening with a young lady whom seems to appreciate me, but I won' entertain false ideas. It's just a matter of time before she sleeps with one of my friend or stabs me in the back. I have been so tested lately that I don't even feel safe being alone anymore.
Another Earthquake in Oklahoma:
http://kfor.com/2014/12/04/3-4-earthquake-rattles-central-oklahoma-overnight/
'Eerie Quiet' At Cascadia Faults in Nevada. Recent tremors:
http://www.oregonlive.com/pacific-northwest-news/index.ssf/2014/12/is_the_eerie_quiet_at_nw_earth.html
Olivet Students To Spend Winter Break Helping After the 2003 Tornado that Nearly Destroyed Moore, OK:
http://www.wwmt.com/news/features/top-stories/stories/Olivet-students-headed-to-Oklahoma-to-help-rebuild-following-2013-tornado-61790.shtml#.VIJDhk0tCUk
WHO Declares Ebola Outbreak in Spain 'Over':
http://www.who.int/mediacentre/news/statements/2014/spain-ends-ebola/en/
CDC Sends Out Apology Because This Year's Vaccine Doesn't Work:
http://www.naturalnews.com/047890_flu_vaccines_CDC_apology_medical_fraud.html
'Call Upon Your Gods' Music Video by Dark Lotus:
http://youtu.be/BizXyE8oivk
