Showing posts with label Christmas. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Christmas. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Saturnalia Special Edition



      Merry Christmas and merry Saturnalia. Why Saturnalia? Because grinches are doing good (bad) work at destroying Christmas for me this year, so rather than associate the beloved holiday of Christmas (it is vary sacred to me) with misery and living hell-on-earth, I will be observing the Pagan tradition with liberal flexibility towards "revisionism". For me it will be a very UNIQUE Xmas. Christmas is very sanctified to me for multiple reasons which include (but are not limited to):

*the childhood magic of Christmas

*I rue Santa deniers. We all know there is a Santa, that the earth is round and that God made it. If that offends you then why the hell would you be reading my blog? Seriously, who does that?

*I was baptized into the LDS church while in Marine Corps boot camp on Christmas Day, 2003.

*When I explored the Left Hand Path, Christmas has a certain atmosphere conducive to my recollection of that wintry time in my life. It is good. Not a bad thing.

*I spent Christmas season of 2012 (Mayan Apocalypse) with the teenage kids and girlfriend at the time. We were a family and that meant so much to me for that period of time, I can honestly say that her kids gave me the happiest moment of my entire life. They were the best Christmas Gift I could ever ask for and the memory of it warms my heart to this day and gives me a reason to be alive.

     I saw the following posted on Face Book and thought I should reproduce it here (thank you 'copy & paste') since I agree with it:

If you're offended by "Baby It's Cold Outside" you're going to have a tough go of it in life. And so are your kids.
First, you are completely ignoring the fact that the song is 74 years old--when women were ladies and men were gentlemen.

Her "protest" was typical of a way a lady would speak to a man instead of just downing some drinks and hopping into bed with him.
No one seems offended by that, but you hear that crap on the radio ALL YEAR LONG.
Men actually had to court women back in those days, a subtle dance that for both men and women no longer exists. Sad but true.


Secondly, "what's in this drink?" does not imply that she was roofied, or at least it didn't in 1944. Get a grip.
She's obviously deflecting her indecision toward her drink, which again, came with the times. She was not being drugged.
(Should we stop watching The Wizard of Oz because when they fall asleep in the poppy fields that means Dorothy is on heroin?)
Moreover, what are you worried is going to happen?? That people will hear this song, completely misinterpret the lyrics (as you obviously have) and then decide to go date rape someone?
Or maybe you're worried about your children and what they will think when they hear it? Gee, maybe it's the perfect teachable moment to actually sit down and have a conversation with your child about how men and women USED to be. Most notably, NOT offended by every stinking thing that crossed their path.
Yes, I agree, Rudolph gets bullied in the animated version of "Rudolph The Red Nosed Reindeer." Aaaaand?? Wasn't that the point of the whole story??
It's the ultimate story of redemption and turning the other cheek and doing what you gotta do in the face of adversity.
He was called a bunch of names by his peers but shook it off and guided Santa's sleigh anyway--in the fog no less!
Is there a better or more stoic way to flip a red nosed middle finger at some jealous reindeer?
What if Rudolph was just offended and cried and sulked off and went to his room and that was the end of the story? A really stupid story, that's what.
Last but not least, have you seen violent video games or watched modern TV or listened to modern radio? 
And you're still worried about a 74 year old Christmas song? Have you lost your mind!?
If you are still offended by these things, good. BE OFFENDED. 
But please don't imply that the rest of us lack morals or good judgement, especially when it comes to parenting.
If you want to raise your kids to be on the lookout and offended at every little thing that they might not understand or agree with, have at it.
I will be watching Rudolph when it's cold outside.
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      True America is falling. We can try and preserve it and save it, or we can give it up to the neopolitik fascism coming over the American society like a plague of locusts. Its awakening a violent, hateful, loveless and dark quagmire in our nation and I can't stand it. No one who is a true patriot and American can stand to see our country bruised like it has been. In our age of 'fear of terrorism' we have become blind to see the real terrorists. It is us. We are the ones ripping it apart. It isn't foreign extremists, or Muslims, or immigrant caravans or foreign invaders. It is bigotry and hate and cold heart and lack of spirit that runs epidemic like a plague through our communities. We have created this golem-this tumor that is eating our country and if we don't light the candle of love in our hearts, our country will be destroyed. Not by North Korean Missiles or Iranian cyber attacks, Chinese invasion or Russian collusion. It will be us. Your neighbor. YOU. FIX OUR WORLD. IT IS SICK IT NEEDS A NURSE. They say charity begins in the heart...that is also where the route of this carcinogen is. In our hearts. Fix your heart and love. Do whatever you have to do to feel it, but find it and bring it out.
     We have very little time left, before the cancer metastasizes and we will see a "new world order" and not a healthy one. It is too late to change that fact. It is coming and is upon us. It is necessary. But, it will get much worse, before we see the best part. I don't tell you this with negativity. I tell it to you with hope. It it necessary that this cycle of things must complete itself and we are at zero hour. Very soon we will see the world shaken to its very limbs by some great cataclysm that will nearly destroy civilization. It will probably be in the form of atomic exchange. Whatever it is, it will be society putting a gun to its own head and pulling the trigger. We have many, many toys laying arounf that are perfect for such a thing. Our sharpest scientists have manifested them through invention and ingenuity.
     Through all of this LOVE. Yourself, your neighbor and as many people as you possibly can. That's the only cure for our diseased world. The medicine will hurt, but just as rubbing alchohol stings the wound, it does so because the medicine is working. We will get through this time, and coming time of crisis by looking inward and treating one another with care and compassion just as the Great Jewish Rabbi instructed us 2,000 years ago [and as have many Messengers of Divinity]. And though the date is wrong, we celebrate his birth this season. Others have different reason for celebrating yule tide, but the one thing that bonds all these divergent traditions together is that this is a a season of love. Love for one another. Charity and giving over taking. And whether you be Jew, or Christian, Buddhist or Bahai, Hindu or Muslim, Wiccan or are a brother or sister of the left hand path-whomever, whatever and where-ever you are; Happy Holidays, I send Love to you all and I hope you will do the same to each other.
     Please. Im sick of seeing us slaughtering each other in the news. Lets make schools and playgrounds and churches and theatres a safe, happy place again. A place for families to go and not have to worry about bullets or bombs from some evil person who wants to hurt people they dont even know. The Devil, the terrible destroyer is at work and he is putting in overtime. But we can beat him. Armed with love, let us put in over time too. Until it hurts.
-Seasons Blessings
Brian Hill

Monday, December 26, 2016

Late Christmas Edition

MERRY XMAS!!!
     This is going to  be a new experiment. Since I don't have access to WI WI right now, I will have to journal, then save. When I am "back home" (visiting my Mom for Christmas in Oklahoma City) I will publish this [late]. Today is Christmas Eve. I broke it in with some eggnog. The exact time is 1:40 a.m. I like this time of year because there is always magic in the air and synchronicities abound. I have especially noticed it in the last few days. Due to a set-back last week, I lost about nine days of productivity but it happened for a reason. Everything that happens, happens the way it is supposed to. If you notice magic moving around you and you spot the patterns and realize that synchronicity is trying to tell you something-go with it. Go the way you are guided. We may have storms here on Christmas Day. Interesting. Our planet is a very interesting place to live. Especially in the last few years. At present I am in Oklahoma City, OK. Staying up late. Not on purpose. Sleep issues. I am tired though.
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     I awoke almost at 0900 on  the dot, to find the city smothered in fog. Fogs are best for walking in (driving and flying in-not so much). Everytime there is a heavy fog (doesnt happen often around here) I go it, looking for monsters like in 'Silent Hill' or Stephen King's 'The Mist'. I havent met any yet, but I haven't given up hope. ISIS has a call out for its Lone Wolf supporters to attack churches and other holiday venues over Christmas. I don't need to publicate my opinion here, because I think it conforms with what a majority of good and patriotic Americans feel. With every "attack" and "incident, we become stronger. A little more honed. A little more closer with each other and a lot bit fed up. What ISIS is unaware of, is that it is training us-on how to kill it. Each attack reveals their strategies, tactics, countless intel about their ops. We are not weakening, we are silently becoming stronger. Like a Samurai that trains for years for a  victorious 3 minute confrontation with his nemesis.
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     Went for a walk while it was still foggy. I could only see about 150 feet around me, before my range of sight gave to the foggy encapsulation of my environment. One of the foggiest days I have ever experienced, but not the THE foggiest. Deeper, darker, more mystical fogs are yet out there for me to enjoy.
     Christmas commemorates the birth of Christ. The problem with this date, is that it was chosen because the Pagans already celebrated the birth of the Pagan messiah on Yule. A more likely time frame for Christ's birth would be in the Spring, because the activities of the people around the nativity story conforms to what one would expect of them in the spring time rather than the colder months of winter. Atheists may celebrate a traditional celebration, if they even choose to observe at all. I commemorate it as the Birth of the Messiah, even if the date is wrong, it is traditional and can mean and be expressed in any way you are inspired to. I would like to think that the winter celebrations of the world's faiths (and sciences) are all part of a big Holiday tapestry. Everyone having their own place and role in a greater celebration towards similar beliefs and values world (galaxy?) wide.
     I know that right now there are lone wolf terrorists contemplating something for today and tomorrow and New Years. But, they are going to get quite the surprise if they try anything, because our protective forces are on duty and many watchmen are at their posts. I live in a world where it is almost an every day fact of reality that someone is plotting to kill me or people I care about at this very moment, and they have the intent to carry that out. 17 years ago I would not have even thought about that risk. But today's world is a much different and darker place then it was at the turn of the century. Which doesn't say much-we were far from being considered to be in a good way.
     So Happy Birthday to Isa/Jesus/Yeshua (may peace be upon Him) whatever date you may have been born and in whatever manifestation of it! Next year I will focus on a different divine archetype for the Yule season. The year before last, I used a Krishna theme. Merrry Krishna! It really doesnt feel like much of a Christmas this year. Too many scrooges expecting some imagine entitlement that if they don't receive it, will make everyone around them their taste venom for ruing them. If your holiday sucks, well I'm sorry. I hope it gets better, but don't screw everyone else's up because your miserable. By now, I have probably said a prayer for you. The dog family is here. Keesha, Ringer and Missy (the "kids").
     Tuesday I need to make contact with P&B Staffing to check on any jobs I may be interested in. my next step is to check with the Navy about recruitment. I also plan to check with CSL plasma. My access to internet resources has bountifully increased, so may God shower Steffan with blessings for his generosity, and may He do the same to the Bart Family, whom have also  helped me immeasurably (they are very good people...like the Benfields). In fact if society was full of more people with that type of generosity, we would be goose stepping towards utopia. But everything is as it should be, so let us all do the best we can do and that at least will be enough to get us off in the right direction. Someone once said "the problem with new years resolutions is that after a few days you forget them and they go no where". Those are nay-sayers. They come only to say "nay" and contribute nothing towards the Great aside from a bad attitude. New years is a way of heralding in a better year. A hope to get off on the right foot. Its entirely up to you to decide which foot to put forward (or backwards for some of you).
      I'd rather be the poor but happy kid who wakes up with no toys on Christmas, rather then to be the miserable haunted soul with mountains of cursed gold. The pleasure of life is bitter-sweet, but the satisfaction of bountiful LOVE from the Creator cant even be described. Not even imagined. As people, we are INCAPABLE of understanding or comprehending the spiritual world. But there is overwhelming evidence that GOD is very well present and it in total control. You have no reason to worry, or to be afraid because in the end if you trust God, then you are absolved from the burden of having to fret over your well being. I know that I will die when God wills it. And that my death is just one more birth into a realm better than this (Alhamdulilah). We have TONS of things to look forward to and unbelievable faucet of blessings that people have for some reason, failed to acknowledge. Pride and humility gets in the way. Being prostrate and humbled before God is a very wonderful feeling. If you have not felt it, I invite you to go your church and pray. Synagogue-pray. Mosque-prayer. Cast circle in the wilderness? Whatever gets you linked up with the Great Mind. The Great Mind says to some "I HAVE BEEN HERE THE WHOLE TIME, YOU NEVER NOTICED ME,  UNTIL YOU NEEDED SOMETHING". The Divine wants your attention and love. Is that really so hard? I bet if you did it, that you would never regret it. If you decide to do it, please I would love to hear from you! BrianHill2393@gmail.com I welcome feed back and comments from readers so please share. Thank you!
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     I'm full of Christmas cheer! If you need a little bit, let me know and I will share some with you. Eggnogg is a ceremonial drink. I'm drinking non-alcoholic nogg. It's very nice. A thought about the Antichrist has crossed my mind. I think that it is highly likely that his cloven hoof is making paw prints somewhere on the earth right now. I bet the AntiChrist gets born on Christmas. Isnt that the way it would work out?
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     Opening gifts has passed. I got a huge amount of supplies to hold back for preparation and storage. I will be ready when the event happens whether its a pandemic, revolution, meteor strike, rabid birds, hippies with the munchies, whatever...I know I will survive it (God Willing)
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     Saturday morning. I don't see any presents from Santa Clause-hes probably tied up somewhere late on his route. That's fine. I will continue to eat my breakfast and wait for his bowl full of jelly to come sliding down my chimney. That last line wasn't made to sound like that, but it's kind of funny. You know what? I think I will take me a nap.
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     Woke up from the nap. Called Wendy. I have napped all day and had left overs. Its 9:32 a.m. now and Christmas is almost over. Another holiday survived. Round three: New Years Eve. Many more adventures to come. I just chugged some Z-Quil (Diphenhydramine with 10 percent alcohol). I literally have slept until it was time to go to bed, so now I take a generous dose of sleep OTC. Just what I need is for this to turn into a trip report! The alcohol in the Z Quiel does not violate my religious obligations since the alcohol is in a medical preparation (and I reserve the belief in specific entheogens being placed on earth bu the Great Spirit as tools for harmonic interface with the matrix of nature and reality.
     Right now I am patiently sitting here with a cigarette feeling stuffy and awaiting the DPH to activate. I', listening to ICP and I'm not proud of that, OK?
     =Merry Late Christmas (and Happy Early New Year!
      -Brian Hill (Completed ib January 26th, 2016)

Monday, November 21, 2016

CHRISTmas Time is Coming!

    I'm happier then an alcoholic with a pint of spiced eggnog about the coming season. I used to hate the winter time because it was depressing and such, but I learned to love it in winter of 2012 when I was able to celebrate it with  a very special family who helped teach me how to find the holiday spirit and I haven't lost it sense and I doubt I ever will. Mithra forbid! My opinion is that when fall roles around (October 1st) we can focus on Halloween and getting into the Halloween spirit. Come November 2nd, then it's Yule time. I blend Thanksgiving and Christmas and Hanukah, etc. as one big Yule Tide celebration. The Christians celebrate December 25th as the birthday of the savior Christ. Pagan traditions hold celebrations for the dying of nature and the birth of their messianic deities. African culture have Kwanza. Atheists celebrate Capitalismas, since it has no spiritual relevance to them. No offense atheists I am just making a little joke. No harm intended.


     I am ready for the Christmas songs, the cold weather (I love cold weather), eggnog and fat men dressed in red (Mao Zedong). For big business it is a time of profits-for the lower class-a time of debts. But it seems to me that those with the least money seem the happiest of all. Even above the corporate aristocrats. Poor people have to learn to appreciate and love what they have, not what they want and certainly not what the perceived power of Mammon (Lord Money) tempts them with. I am poor and the happiest I have ever been. My wallet may be empty, but my heart is overflowing. Our world is decrepit and is sliding down the wrong side of shit hill; with gun violence skyrocketing and terrorism an every day reality for ever man, woman and child on earth now. Not even the North Pole is safe anymore. I haven't personally been there, but I can imagine a gun toting Santa with a small cache of surface-to-air missiles in case a Russian invasion over the North Pole (that's exactly where they will be coming from). I hope terrorists don't try to ruin our holidays. Because if they try to ruin the holidays of the good people of my community-we are ready to ruin theirs. America and the free world wont stand by as pacifists while someone tries to take from us what is dear to us and what has been fought for and protected by many great patriots. We are ready to defend our Holidays, our land and our interests. We will not fail and we will not be victims. With God, we are protectors and deciders of out fate and out nations sovereignty and we will not fail in its independence if He be willing.


     One place I have wanted to visit recently is Crossroads Mall in Oklahoma City. After some gang violence and store closing in recent years the building has mostly gone to waste, but I have since learned that it has been redone and opened and is quite a nice place to visit. I wonder if Santa will be there? I hope Toni has a good Christmas and I wish she could be here so I could take her to see Santa. This will be a good Christmas. It will be a magical Christmas. It may well be one of the best Christmas's ever. I will probably spend it at my Mom's house with the dogs and eating Christmas dinner and the typical ritual of gift exchanging. I love the way the air feels this time of year and the magic that is present in everything. Many people however unfortunately aren't able to enjoy this time for many reasons. I hope that God willing, their hearts will be opened up to the sparkle (mine was). Everyone of us can do a little part to help each other make this time of year enjoyable and safe for those around us.


     Thanksgiving is to me, another excuse for eating as serves as practice for Christmas. Isn't that what it is really? It's pre-Christmas orientation. If your a nay-sayer or a scrooge then don't waste your time trying to ruin my spirit. You wont be able to. And its probably that my spirit just might rub off on you! I respect that though, if this time of year isn't good for you or if you abstain from it. That is your right and I respect that too. Christmas is a time of love, charity and giving. It is not meant to be about money, materialism, capitalism or personal gain. To make it such, is to spoil that which is good about it and aggravates the bad things that find their way trying to ruin it for everyone. I like gifts and I like giving gifts, but more than that I love to love and give it liberally and to receive it and my love doesn't run out and yours shouldn't either. So if maybe you find you need someone to give you a little bit of love, please feel free to reach out to me and I will gladly indulge you.


     -Merry Thanksgiving Gathering Christmas Special


     Brian Hill
     BrianHill2393@Gmail.com

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Pray for Japan

  

      I have been doing a lot of meditating and contemplating and getting a lot of writing done. It's all in my journals. Things that I will share on here as time goes on. I needed to hit the mental "reset button" and give my brain a good flush. It worked. Clarity of thought and a little bit of spring cleaning make way for bright new things. It is almost Christmas time and I am in the Holiday spirit. I had to revive that spirit. For awhile the Holidays were kind of a downer for me. But these days they aren't. I love it! I believe in Santa. Not that a literal red fat man lives at the North Pole, but rather that the spirit of Santa is very real. He is timeless and I bet if we found another intelligent civilization out in space-they would have a Santa too!

     Today there was a 5.5M Quake in Japan. Ironic since I had an interesting conversation with a gentleman from the Philippines about Japanese earthquakes. No reports of immediate damage. It seems that 51 of the Sailors who helped in the rescue after the Fukushima incident have come down with various cancers. God bless those men and women. They have gone way above and beyond what they were called to do and have sacrificed so much as a result. And for that we should show appreciation. There has also been an incident where the Chinese Navy blocked the way of a US battleship that was trailing their carrier in the south China sea. While I can understand the Chinese wanting to protect their assets, it is never a smart idea to get in the way of America. Right or wrong, things like that come with a hefty price tag.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Diamonds and Triangles and the Blessings of Youth

     I don't know if I already mentioned it or not-that I got my two month sobriety chip from AA. I attend meetings at Norman Original Group in Norman, OK. Had Thanksgiving with the family of a friend which was really nice. I enjoyed it. I always enjoy eating. I am almost out of groceries and SNAP doesn't come for me until the 10th. Tomorrow I am supposed to see my Mom, so she will likely bring me food. I am making due until then. I am very resourceful and do well under extreme conditions. That makes me a good survivalist. Someone to have on your team when the rains come.

     Some of the things that I seek to do are to encourage creativity, wisdom and free expression in youth. I am interested in becoming a youth minister, however the Bahai Faith has no ministry, so my ministry is my service to my society and the youth of this society and world. I also enjoy getting little gifts from the children of friends and within my family. Even a small picture of hand maid trinket is far more valuable to me then something bought in a store-especially when it comes from the heart. I like to teach and challenge them and be challenged and taught by them. Two youths whom I recently was able to care for taught me much.

12 Days from now: December 14th, 2013.
12 Days Ago: November 20th, 2013.

Christmas is on December 25th and last Thursday was Thanksgiving. January will begin the President's sixth year in office.

Is Sasquatch really a Chewbaka?
 
-Brian Hill
 December 2nd, 2013 (1 A.A.)
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Diamonds and Triangles

     I have seen an interesting triangle symbol in a dream that I had as well as having noticed the same symbol popping up from time to time. And as someone who follows synchronicity and the universes messages-I naturally take note. The dream that the symbol appeared in was apocalypse related and the symbol represented either the eschaton or the Antichrist. The symbol resembles a large triangle composed of three other triangles (Three 3's). The pyramid is also the symbol of the Illuminati. I had the dream over a year ago I believe, but have noticed the reappearance of the symbol. The symbol is also related to a diamond in a way that I won't get in to here. The diamond being a symbol of the AC (at least in the dream) has lead me to look for Antichrist patterns related to the diamond.
 
     A few years ago a personality appeared on the Internet by the name of John Titor, who claimed to be a time traveler from the future and brought with him some details of the future that haven't materialised. One example is that in 2005 (?) America would be involved in an nuclear war. And it doesn't appear that we were. He also claimed that at the age of 13 he joined a militia group called the Fighting Diamondbacks. There is also Diamondback Tactical for those who like to arm themselves in cool weapons and tactical gear (militia related?). The Correctional Corporation of America, a private prison company, has a prison here in Oklahoma called Diamondback Correctional Facility. Could the Antichrist be a company? I doubt it. Most likely he is comes from the political system rather than a corpocracy. A diamondback is also a snake (serpent). The devil allegedly appeared to Eve in the Garden of Eve in the guise of a snake. Was he a diamondback maybe?
 
     Could the Beast be related to the diamondback somehow? There are a few loose points I listed above. They don't prove anything, but they do make material for consideration...or maybe not? Tribulation (Tri-) and Triangle (Tri-). Tri=three letters.
 
The triangle is complete. The Tribulation can now begin.
 

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