Article Review for the Gospel of Judas

     Storms possible for the OKC metro tonight with possible rain in the morning. I was wrong the other day when I though there would be a tornado outbreak. Maybe one ot two that day, but I doubt it was an outbreak. Quakes continuing as normal, but activity record breakingly high. Today was warm and very windy...this post must be so boring for you to read. It's all dry and boring like the most bare weather report. I don't have much about my personal life at the moment, but that can be a good thing. No news means everything is going steady. No sudden changes to adapt to.

     I have just finished reading The Gospel of Judas. I'm not sure what my opinion of it is. It seems to be as reliable at the other NT Canon, but teaches a whole different thing than the orthoxic scriptures. It should be appreciated for what it is however- a literary work of theological philosophy left up to the interpreter to contemplate for themselves. What I can say is this-I gained a lot from reading the document. I do feel that Judas's side of story should be considered for whatever it's worth. And it might worth as much as Matthew, Mark, Luke or John.

     I always harp on looking for synchronicity in your life. Even if you don't believe in it, what's the harm? You just might have fun, and learn something too. Maybe even discover your Higher Power if you haven't already done so, or gain an interesting experience with the laws of physics itself.  

Attention Seeking Behavior in Children

     Oklahoma is currently under an earthquake warning issued by USGS and Oklahoma Geological Survey. Bad storms have hit this region of the country and are expected to return today or tomorrow.

     How does one deal with a child that is a disciplinary problem or seeks attention? I am no parent, but I have taken care of children and teenagers and adults and the elderly. When they act out try giving them the attention they are seeking. Perhaps their attention seeking behavior will cease if you spend a little time with them. They want love. Show them love and non-judgemental acceptance. I have found that this always works for me. I understand all kids are unique and all situations aren't necessarily remedied the same way however. Try this and see what lind of reults you get-you may be suprised. It even works on grown-ups too!

Death in the Family

     I have developed a dental abcess in the back of my mouth on the lower left side. It is inflamed and tender. So are the lymph nodes. The weather here lately has been sunny and it is windy today. We may have storms coming soon, but I think that we will have more nice days than bad weather ones. The storm zones seem to be slowly moving east, year by year. That must be climate change. I think that I have singled out an apartment complex that I like. The dating scene hasn't been working out for me, so the best thing for me in that regard is to abstain from it. I have also noticed people distancing themselves from me though I am uncertain as to why at the moment.

     Every once in awhile, I suggest a book or movie for you to see or read. I would like to suggest Oprah's Beloved. Movie based off of a book. Strange and shocking film with lots of easter eggs. This film needs to be viewed multiple times to soak it in. There are many "theories" regarding it. I haven't read the book, but would like to pick it up someday.

     I have been reading "lost" books of the Bible and am thinking most of the apocryphal books are bogus and probably a major part of the Bible (as well as other scriptures) are too. But, I still find them usefull as literature and spiritual poetry. Some failed prophecies (mine included) and failed prophetic events are also leading me to conclude that we aren't living in the last days, but that our planet may just be going through a period of change which is just as exciting anyway. I still retain faith in God and a belief in the ability to experience spiritual events and direct experience of God.

**breaking** @ approx. 1650: I just got word that my Step-Father has been killed in a motorcycle accident. This will wear hard on my mother who lost one love already to a motorcycle accident. I have lost my Grandfather in July.

Brief Update

     I have been in the process of apartment shopping as I e plan to move within the next month or so. My room mate also is moving before May let's out. There has been a tornado outbreak recently in the American south, causing the deaths of about 37 people. We have barely gotten into tornado season and these things are already beggining. There is also an increase in MERS cases, with at least one in Mecca. Earthquakes are still ongoing in Oklahoma.

Beautiful DaY For the Music Festival

     Today is beautiful as was yesterday. Sunshine. Yesterday was windy, but pleasant. Tomorrow and Sunday may bring bad weather. I am looking forward to it. A couple of days ago we had brief rain, a little thunder and some lightning. Nothing very interesting. Nothing dramatic has happened in Israel yet since the Blood Moon, but the peace talks between Israel and Palestine are approaching the deadline. I wonder what will happen to that. Likely it will not pass and get delayed even longer as it always has. Today I have gotten a lot of things done in preparation for the weekend. I always try to get as much as possible done, before the weekend. Sometimes it's like I am manic. Maybe I am? Today and the weekend is the Norman Music Festival which I plan on visiting every day...since I live less than a mile from it. I will keep you posted.

A Short Story About My Recovery

     My recovery has been a long journey. It has gone on as long as I have been on this earth. But I am thankful for it…why? Because I could have been afflicted with a worse fate. Some people (may peace be upon them) suffer from genetic disorders or cancer, paralysis or any number of horrible conditions, I count my blessings and give thanks to the  Great ‘I AM’ (God) that he has blessed me with legs that walk, eyes to see and ears to hear, a heart that loves and ears to hear, etc. God bless and be with those with greater burdens than my own.

    It began about the age of 12 or 13 with symptoms of OCD. I recognized it immediately and kept it a secret for many years. Luckily eventually I told my Physician who was able to put me on a medication that has mostly caused the OCD to go into remission. At the age of about 15 and a half, I began to experience deep depression, but I could not connect it to any specific cause. It just seemed to appear and plague my every conscious moment. It was just there one day and it crippled me. I lost motivation and even went periods of time on little food from lack of appetite.  I isolated myself and even had suicidal thoughts. When I graduated from High School and enlisted in the Marines. I was discharged and given a ‘Entry Level Separation’ while still in boot camp for reasons related to my condition. To this day I continue to pursue enlistment in the military. Currently I am in contact with a Recruiter from the National Guard. I struggled through my 20s with depression and anxiety but all glory belongs to Jehovah that I did not ever successfully cause my own death. I found my current faith in August of 2011. I joined the Baha’i Faith and pursued a relationship with God and even had a spiritual experience that changed my life in about the fall of 2012.  God has saved me from the Adversary (myself) that I could not overcome on my own. He has led me to better people and a better life. In the lunar calendar it takes 28 days for the moon to complete one cycle and become a new moon. It is interesting that I became a new man at the age of 28 after having completed a self destructive cycle in my life and began true recovery. My reasons have given me happiness and a reason to stay alive. I could never again entertain the idea of suicide again, because I know that God loves me and wants me alive because he has a will for me. To commit a suicidal act contradicts what God’s will for me is. So I must work on myself in a positive way and follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit and those teachers who have come into my life. I must focus on doing good and working to make society a better place.

     Transition House has helped me immensely. More than any other resource (excluding the institutions of God) and has given me a routine and needed structure as well as neighbors and a roommate who contributes to the development of my social skills. I have been given access to many resources that I have used to better myself and taken steps to forward my goals. Thank you Mary, Bonnie, Candice and the other people of Transition House who have provided me with role models who have positively contributed to my recovery. May God bless them and all associates of Transition House!

 

     -Sincerely Brian Hill

      April 25, 2014

Two Days Until the Blood Moon

     Not much to share regarding my personal life except that I may be moving soon. Staying in the same damned city though. As I write this there are just under 48 hours until the blood moon which I think may bring about a war with Israel. Seven days prior to the blood moon was an alignmentt of the sun, earth and Mars. There appears to be a 0% chance of a peace treaty being signed between Israel and Palestine...big suprise there. The weather forecast for Oklahoma is erratic as usual with rain through today and the possibility of snow on Monday.

     I frequently plug 'Illuminatus!' here in my blog and am continuing to suggest you read it if you havent. Already. It's one of my favorite books, and would be of interest to others sharing an interest in the eschaton, conspiracies and the Illuminati. I'm also re-reading the 'Left Behind' series for the umpteenth time.

     At the moment it is 3:43 A.M. and I am listening to Simon and Garfunkle. I listen to a very eclectic. Range of music and enjoy music almost as much as books. Right now it is windy outside and we have already got a brief sprinkeling of rain. I am ready for storms, but I think we will have a brief, but powerful storm season. I wobder if Moore will get another tornado. I wonder if Norman will ever get hit by a tornado. It has already been the area for at least a few earthquakes in the past, which brings up the fact that Oklahoma has been very active seismicaly and as t
ime goes on, our quake activity seems to increase.

     I wonder when I might see my friend Bob again. Long stretches of time go between visits since we live in entirely different counties. I have been smoking more than usual. I am out of e-cig juice, so I have been trying to keep my smoking limited. Laundry needs to be done, but it is hard around here with no easy access laundry facility. So I have my mom do it for me. Gave her a load a couple of days ago and when I see her again she will get another. I am hoping we do get storms today, but I don't know if they will actually hit my areaor not. We will likely only get some rain and wind. In reality I don't even really expect snow, but I am sure that Monday will be cold and rainy. Good thing I haven't put away my hoodies yet. You can never be sure when winter has really passed around here.

     Tomorrow will probably be cold. Right now is good westher to be out walking in, if you have some place to walk around. Norman is a good town for walking in. Very safe here. Today is Sunday, but I won't be attending religious services. Likely will catch up on sleep instead. I have had very unhealthy sleep lately. No other real plans for tomorrow. Will likely remain in my corner of town and make the most of the weather and do some reading and DVD watching.