Working to be a Better Me

     Hot days are here for Oklahoma. We get those hot summers. Maybe it wont be so hot as it was last year. Part of the state is still affected by a drought. I have been doing good working on myself, with help from God. I have made mush progress and know I will make more. Those of you that know me personally will be impressed by the man I will become, through God's assistance. I have been praying for friends as usual and have one friend and another associate in jail, whom I have been praying for either a release or at least for God to help them through this time. At a service on Thursday, the Pastor said that it is not always that God wants to deliver us from trouble, but to take us through it. The scriptures tell us that God, does not put us up against anything that we cant handle. Another clergy man has said that sometimes he does...but that he wants us to give over our troubles to him. When your going through that dark night of the soul, just give up your troubles to God. Know that it is not his intention to overwhelm or break you, but rather to build you up through him.

     We are seeing great civil rights improvements in the United States with the recent allowing for openly gay Soldiers, Sailors, Airmen and Marines to serve in the armed forces as well as get married in some states. There are religious groups who oppose this (I do not), and believe that judgement is coming to America for the recent congressional decisions. I also believe that judgement is coming to America, but mostly because of its decisions to choose evil over good, and love of money or dehumanising the lower classes.

     I try to be aware of my short comings and my sins, so that I can know what to pray for forgiveness for, what to work on, and what to pray about. God, I pray that you will forgive me. For I am a sinner and know I will sin again. I know that through your grace I will be made clean and forgiven and will join you to eat at your table in the next world. I thank you for giving us the Messiah who's blood was shed so that I could have life and be free from bondage. Thank you LORD. Amen. I hope that you will pray a similar prayer, and I pray that we will meet in Heaven. I have also been delving into my past, a more negative aspect of my past. I have some questions about something that may have happened to me as a youth and I ma investigating it further. Perhaps some day I will share my insights with you. I pray that God will open my eyes to the truth about the matter and that I will learn from it, and gain material to share and teach from it. I pray that my readers likewise are blessed and forever remember you and that you will bless everyone reading my blog and that more will come and see it, and that it will serve your purpose to spread your word and allow me to share my testimony. I give up my will to you God, and ask to serve in whatever capacity you have for me. It is an honor for me to serve you oh my LORD.

     The other night we had a storm, but I slept right through it. I was awoken by thunder, but I was so tired I just made a mental mental note of it, and went back to sleep and forgot about it. The next day something reminded me that it had stormed the night before, but we must not have got much rain, because the ground didn't even show signs of precipitation, except some damp grass. I have been doing  a lot of traveling lately between Oklahoma City, and Norman. Going back to Norman is like a vacation for me (which is funny if you remember what I have previously said about Norman) and I get to visit some of my friends there. I would like to live in Norman, but my life right now requires that I NOT be in Norman for the foreseeable future, except to visit. That could be good. I maybe need some time away from Norman. I may be coming back down there on Tuesday of this week and likely Friday of next week maybe. Maybe stay the weekend. Depends on how things go. I would like to do more self learning while I am down there. Manage to get some done, while here in the city. Between the book I am reading and my own spiritual exercises.

     I am working on my own flaws and issues and am making progress praise God. I am learning more about me and what I can do to be a better me.

Rent and Mortgage Assistance

If you are a resident of Cleveland County in Oklahoma and need help with rent or mortgage assistance, please call the Central Oklahoma Community Action Agency at (405)-275-6060.
    

Too Hot to Live!

    At the current time I am trying to delve into my subconscious and pull some memories from way back in my youth. As a young child. There are some things I need to explore and figure out that I am not so sure about. Sort of like time traveling or self administered psychoanalysis. I am in Norman today, but will be returning to Oklahoma City tomorrow. I love traveling.

     MERS appears to be sneaking around in asymptomatic people (remember what I said before about minor cases going undetected?). That means that infections have occurred that either did not manifest any illness (person becomes immune through exposure) or have done so in a mild form. This should lower the fatality percentage. I bet MERS is less deadly then we presume. Not to imply it's not a dangerous disease. I mean that the "half of all people" die ratio will eventually be dropped some. For example it could go to 30-40 percent. That is what I would expect. This is just my opinion. I am neither an epidemiologist or a statistician so please determine your own opinions. Two volcanoes in Alaska have increased there seismic activity, and while we are on the topic of Alaska-they just recently had a heat wave. The Western U.S. can expect a HOT week as temps in Phoenix could peak above 120. In Oklahoma-I believe that today the temp was 101 degrees. That's spicy. But, in Oklahoma we get pretty extreme summers. These last couple of years have brought is temperatures as high as the 100 and teens. Sweltering heat. Beads of sweat poured off of me today. Riding the bus was fun. No really it wasn't because the A/C did not work so that made for an interesting ride. It was so hot you couldn't breath, and the windows were all closed. The bus pulls up and picks up about twenty kids who get on. Less space, more air, more heat. I thought about those people who die on sub way trains during power outages on extremely hot days. They suffocate.

    I believe that a significant event is coming. A sort of revival maybe. Soon the Word of God will make itself known in people's hearts. You will feel it. If you have not already accepted God and been saved through the Anointed One, this will be your chance. Open your heart to receive that message when the LORD sends it down to you. Accept God. After the passing of this event, it might be too late. Not to late to change or accept God. That isn't what I mean. Imagine-if God wanted to give us "one last chance", before he really unleashed what is to come? Wouldn't you want the chance to opt out of whatever tragedy is around the corner? Reader, if you haven't done so already I ask that you will take a moment (now preferably or maybe before you go to sleep) and ponder God as you understand him/her to be. Pray to God to come into your life and change you, and to experience the Spirit so that you can have a testimony. I assume and hope that each of my readers have a unique and personal relationship with God. If you don't, that's OK with me too! Because I wont judge you for having your own opinion and beliefs. Freedom of expression and belief is a God given right.

     I wanted to mention that a potential employer of mine is located on "23rd" street ;). To my friend S.M. I enjoyed the time I spent with you today, I hope we can do it again sometime really soon. Your a special person and I love your mind. B. May peace be upon you.

     I didn't include this above, because it wasn't related to the heat and it was something of its own kind. There is a little girl and her mother I see often on the bus. The girl has a heart condition. I am going to pray for her. Will you pray for her too?

Prayers and Blessings and Updates On Me

That one indeed is a man who, today, decideth himself to the service of the entire human race. The Great Being saith: Blessed and happy is he that ariseth to promote the best interests of the peoples and kindreds of the earth.     -Baha'u'llah    

      Back in Norman today, to take care of some more business. I have had some great developments in my life recently. A shout out to that special someone of whom my heart belongs. Your prayers for me last week went answered and I will be needing more in the months ahead. Thank you for those prayers and good thoughts. I am sending mine out to you too. I donate plasma twice a week when able. Not in as big a need for money, but the plasma goes to people who need it, and that is a positive contribution I try to make. I try to effect the world in as much of a positive way as possible. I am not trying to brag, just sharing my ministerial activities in hopes that I can inspire others to do the same. I don't seek t do good to get credit or recognition, but to give glory to God who deserves all praise. Do not be proud for me, be proud for God and seek to do the same things in your own way. If everyone did their part to make the world a better place and to offer service to God, this world would be an infinitely better one.

     I continue to see synchronicity in life all the time. It reminds me that God is ever present and communicates with us, when we will stop log enough to listen. 23s are ever present (I am sitting at library computer 32 right now and that was unintentional) as is 216. When I see the number 216 I take the time to ask myself if that is God trying to tell me something. Lately I have felt the Holy Spirit's presence with the burning chest manifestation a couple of times this last week presenting one with a revelation and twice with the sensation of love. I used to get the sensation much more often, but as our faith grows, I believe that those obvious manifestations of God can diminish only because God wants us to have faith in His presence rather than having to constantly remind us. But, how great would that be to always feel the presence of God and the Holy Spirit? Months ago it was an almost constant feeling with me. I walked with a euphoric high. I can understand what people mean when they say they are "high on Jesus".

     I keep having a repetitive dream. In essence it should be good (because the dream is a quite happy one with a positive setting), but it is a dream of something I long for, but can not have. So upon waking I am despaired that it was only a dream. Some nights I continue to yell out in my sleep. I have also yelled out the name "Shawna" who is the little sister of a friend of mine. I seem to be looking for her in my dream. Calling out to her. What in the world could it mean? It doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me. Some of you would like this blog to be more personal and about me. I will do my best to apply that. If you want to know me better you can always email me at BrianHillMA@hotmail.com or look me up on Facebook with that same email address or search for "Brian James Hill in Oklahoma City" on FB.

     There are some opportunities for me to enter the Ministry or attend Pastoral training. I am seriously considering this. Either taking the Pastoral training through a Non-Denomination church or attending a Divinity school or seminary. Not only would it help here with the blog, but I could serve in the clergy or even begin my own ministry. Today the Supreme Court struck down DOMA and Proposition 8. This allows same sex marriage to continue in California.

     Isn't is a great thing to be in love and with your life companion? To know that person will make a great parent to your children and that there is great hope for a wonderful family in the future? It is one of the greatest and fulfilling feelings to have. A family is such a great gift from God. I can think of no other worldly desire than to have a happy and loving family. That would make me truly happy. Kids make me so happy to be around. Even when they aren't my own. I am a care taker and love to take care of children. They always put a smile on my face and remind me that love is a very real and powerful thing. Soon I will begin working on a fictional series of books narrating end time events (sort of similar to the Left Behind series, but unique in its own ways). I will likely release bits and pieces from the books here on my blog when they become available. Speaking of which, I have just finished reading Desecration from the Left Behind Series. Good book. A lot of it is filler and I am starting to get the feeling that as the books progress the authors got sort of lazy and starting breezing through certain events (for example in Desecration there is brief mention of the plague of boils on the receivers of Nicolai's mark and the oceans turning into blood). But, the ending is a cliff hangar and I cant wait to start the next book. I am likely to be done with the entire adult series of books soon. Next I will start on the children's series.

Prayer and Blessing List:

This is a list of people whom are on my prayer list. If you would like to pray for, or bless these people as well I am sure it would be appreciated. Even if you don't know these people's names (some initials have been changed), God does!

-S.M. and Family: I think of you all often and will never stop loving you. Kids- I am so proud of the people you are and I hope you know how much I love you and miss you, and feel so proud of you. You all will always have a home in my heart. I wish you well with your goals and living the lives you strive to live.
-P.P.T.: May you be blessed and may you follow the directives of God and live a good life.
-B. Thank you for your kindness. You are an awesome person. Congratulations on the baby and I wish the best for the both of you! Kids are a gift from God. I am so jealous!
-K.M.C.: I hope the surgery goes well and that there is no need for more and that you are healed and the healing stands as a testimony to the Glory of God. May the current difficulties in  your life be lifted and everything go well and easy for you and your family. May they be blessed as well.
-Jessica R. and your Grandmother: I pray that you will be comforted by the Holy Spirit and that your Grandmother will be comfortable, health and happy and will do well.

Spiritual Tip: Use your community and your resources to better the world through your own spiritual understanding. Take every advantage  to spread love and minister to the people around you. The theme today is to make the world a better place through your own actions. No deed is too small to make a HUGE impact.

 

CME's and Miracles

     I see miracles every day, and they just keep on happening, but I am not complaining. It does wonders for me to get to see them! Helps me a long through the tough times I am going through. Yesterday the Sun ejected a fast moving CME that could effect communication on earth within the next few days. The solar maximum this cycle is expected to be at its strongest later this year and more solar storms can be expected.

Going Through My Own Apocalypse and Giving the Gift 0f Love (a Letter to those Close to me)

     Life is still putting up a challenge for me. Yesterday I met up with the woman with whom I had that rocky relationship I reported here. She is happy in her new life. And I am happy for her. And though, it hurts me and things have been rough, I believe that Gods hand was in this. In yesterday's post I mentioned a burning sensation in my chest after having prayed and in an unexpected way, God answered that prayer. I was given closure and learned and heard all that I needed to. I want to give praise to God for giving me that opportunity and chance to heal and for guiding me through those really tough moments where for a brief second it felt like I would just collapse like a deck of cards in a hurricane, but God kept me together, wiped away the tears from my eyes, picked me up and dusted me off and set me on my way, just when I didn't think I was able to do it for myself. You probably are already have read the poem Foot Prints in the Sand, but let me leave a link for you just in case: http://www.footprints-inthe-sand.com/index.php?page=Poem/Poem.php

     So to S.M. I wish you well in whatever you do. And may God's guidance and presence and blessing be with you always, as I know he already is. Listen to God's guidance and know that everything will turn out exactly as the LORD intends it too... and he wants the best for all of us. I will never forget you, or stop loving you-but we cant be in each others lives anymore. And to Robin S. (I didn't want to use your last name-didn't know if I was allowed to) thank you for being there for me for the past nine years. You are special to me in ways I can' put words to. I don't think a lady (besides my mom) has ever loved me as much as the love you have given me for the past years. Our relationship has been a very special one and it has never been broken. We share a faith in God, and I give thanks to God for him putting you in my life. I have never know another person like you.
you, or stop loving you-but we cant be in each others lives anymore. And to Robin S. (I didn't want to use your last name-didn't know if I was allowed to) thank you for being there for me for the past nine years. You are special to me in ways I can' put words to. I don't think a lady (besides my mom) has ever loved me as much as the love you have given me for the past years. Our relationship has been a very special one and it has never been broken. We share a faith in God, and I give thanks to God for him putting you in my life. I have never know another person like you.

      To Jackie-happy early birthday! You also are a very special person with a very special purpose. I wish good health for you and the baby! Children are a gift from God and I am so excited! Much love to you. And to "friends" who stab other friends in the back-I am going to do everything in my power to forgive you. Not because I want to. Because God wants me to. And if I expect to be forgiven for my marks I have to extend that forgiveness to others. Your actions have shown the kind of person you are, and I want nothing more to do with you. I will leave it at that.

Post on the First Day of Summer

     OK. Let's see what kind of trouble we can get in to today. We are officially now in summer. Goodbye Spring. It didn't seem to last long here in Oklahoma. Seemed like winter stuck around most of the time. Today is going to be a challenging day for me, so if you have it in you, prayers would be appreciated! I am back in Norman today (and yesterday) to take care of some business and will return home this evening (if all goes well). I did not get much sleep last night, but I doid get hours of thinking done (what else is insomnia good for?) and contemplated a lot of things that have been bugging me. Especially that one issue I cant seem to cast off my back. I got that familiar euphoric feeling in my chest (the feeling that tells me the Holy Spirit is in me or "speaking" to me). It was for a few brief moments and not as intense as it had been in previous months. I am not sure of what the message was exactly, but I felt something "change". Like something had changed in my life, or a problem had been solved, or I had passed through to a new spiritual level or something similar to that. I am assuming (until I get further enlightenment from God) that the sensation occurred, because of an epiphany I had about a certain matter that I have had on my mind. I am curious to see what becomes of that. I may keep you posted on that.

     The weather last night was nice. I had a lot of time to look up at the stars and moon. In these last few months I have been paying a lot more attention to the sky. It seems so much more beautiful and interesting than it had before my 'awakening'. I encourage you to look up at the sky frequently. What does it tell you? Do it both in day and night. Become familiar with the stars and what is up there. I noticed that we are about to have a full moon. Strange things and bad events might be imminent.

     Atlantis. What do YOU believe? I am open minded to the idea that Atlantis existed, but I am agnostic on the issue. If Atlantis did exist it could explain the similar religions and architectures of the Mayans and Egyptians, as well as their obsession with stars. Look at a map of the world. "Piece" together the continents like a puzzle and look for a hole or unusual coast line pattern. Where could Atlantis fit in that frame?

     Have you been following the news about the MERS outbreak. MERS is 'Middle East Respiratory Syndrome" and is a newly discovered corona virus from Saudi Arabia. I have reported on it in several past posts (Key words: 'MERS' and 'Middle East Respiratory Syndrome'). The fatality rate appears to be much higher than that of its distant cousin SARS, which killed over 800 people in a global pandemic in 2003c. This virus is acting like SARS, as it seems to slowly be spreading in hospitals in several countries. SARS did the same thing in China, but was covered up by the Chinese government at the time. The difference now, is that we can observe its spread in the early stages, which we were unable to due with SARS because of the information black out. There have been approximately 50 cases identified so far, but that is just the number of people whom have sought medical treatment. There are people out there who are sick with milder cases of the virus (which means its lethality is not necessarily the 50-60% that has been proposed) and are treating it at home assuming they have gatden variety colds and flu. That means that MERS has a 'shadow' that is spreading unchecked. Quite possibly anyway. That is a theory, that I believe is very likely going on.

     Protests, civil war and revolution continues to spread around the world. I expect it to arrive in the United States sometime soon. Probably within the year. But, I have been wrong about this before. I expected an economic collapse by April of this year, which hasn't happened, but I still think that it is coming. I mean it when I say America is already dead. What remains is a crude ghoul of what she previously was. What remains are the Federal States of America IMO.

     I previously predicted a brief but intense tornado season for Oklahoma (with a storm that would surpass May 3rd's storm in 1999). And it appears I was dead on-again. A majority of my predictions have been dead on accurate. My success rate has surprised me. But then again, I believe that the Holy Spirit reveals much to me and I try to report it here as accurately as I can. All praise to God and the Holy Ghost and Yeshuah HaMashiach.

The following has been copied and pasted from  http://www.spaceweather.com/ June 21st, 2013 Post:

"SUMMER SOLSTICE: Today is the first day of northern summer. At 1:04 a.m. EDT on June 21st, the sun reached its highest point on the celestial sphere (declination = +23.5^o) marking the start of summer in the northern hemisphere, and winter in the south. Happy solstice!"

First off-notice the 'declination' for the sun this morning. 23.5 Have you read my previous posts concerning the number 23? And look again RAW fans...2+3=5. 23 preceding the law of 'five'. The natural law of the universe. As I stated in another post, 23 is the number of both the Illuminati and the presence of the Eschaton.

     Another Earth/Asteroid encounter is coming up on the 17th of July. And let me share with you a quote from The Hal Lindsey Report (June 21st, 2013)..."Sales of George Orwell's book, Nineteen Eighty-Four, are up 6,000% because of his eerie foreshadowing of events that are unfolding in America today". As you may have already heard, the Federal government is keeping records of emails, telephone calls, etc. of all citizens. I am not that worried about it however, because I don't think I am interesting enough for the Feds to be concerned with. That, and I have nothing to hide. But, I am against the peeping tom fetish that the U.S. government has perfected.

Mayan Apocalypse Cartoon:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/21/mayan-calendar-doomsday-vision-cartoon_n_2347599.html?utm_hp_ref=end-of-the-world

Dem Senator Hurls 'Distortion' Charge Over NSA Leaks:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/06/20/claire-mcaskill-nsa-leaks_n_3475969.html

 

'Tornado Cough' A Problem in Oklahoma's Tornado Damaged Areas:

http://kfor.com/2013/06/19/tornado-cough-threatening-families-in-devastated-areas/

 

     There have been some respiratory ailments around lately. A lot of them I am sure have to do with the debris, plus volunteers coming from around the country with their own geographically unique germs, plus the mass housing and close quarters for tornado victims. This has created a melting pot for germs and potential diseases. As I type this I have a sore throat and a cough. Tornado cough? Allergies? Or one of the other bugs going around?

I Want to Hear YOUR Comments!:

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Sorry for the Late Updates!

     It's been hectic for me for the last week or so. Between being in a new relationship and a new job, I havent had as much time for my blog. But, I havent forgotten it! My updates may take longer to post, but they will keep coming! I have been in a kind of slump with some personal stuff (relocating, getting past a recent relationship with someone I had strong feelings for, etc.). I also don't like the city I moved too. The people here arent very nice either. Today and tommorow I am back in Norman to take care of some bussiness. To those of you who pray, I need the prayer for some obstacles I am coming against. You are appreciated.

     The Pope is calling for a world government and has liberal and new policys for the Church. I believe that Pope Francis is preparing the way for the Antichrist and the construction of the False Church. He also has suggested that the religions of the world should come together. Is there any question that he is the prophet of New Babylon? The Pope is playing the role of the False Prophet very well.

-Brian Hill
 June 20th, 2013

P.S. Hawaii is coming due for a tsunami.

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Song Lyrics I Would Like to Share

'It's Time' by Imagine Dragons

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain check

...

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell
Right to the top
Don't look back
Turning the rags and giving the commodities a rain check

 

Lyrics copied and pasted from: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/imaginedragons/itstime.html

 

'Radioactive' by Imagine Dragons

I'm breaking in, shaping up, then checking out on the prison bus
This is it, the apocalypse

...

 

I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones
Enough to make my systems blow
Welcome to the new age, to the new age

...

 

A World Gone Mad

http://newsletter.followersofyah.com/read/2013/06/a-world-gone-mad-signs-of-the-times/

 

Above article from the Followers of Yah web page. I really like reading the articles put out by F.O.Y. Ministry's and the DVD's they will send you...for free.