Some Quotes from Brian

     It's the Fourth of July and I am spending it at Lake Murray as I do every year. It is my earthly paradise. I have been coming here my whole life.

Spot in front of the lodge.

Look it's a turtle!

The side of the lodge facing the lake.

The dock.

    I haven't gone swimming though. I haven't gotten around to it. Maybe today if it gets warmer and stops raining. But first lunch and a cup of coffee. And a cigarette. Beer later.

     The total fatalities from COVID-19 in the United States has reached almost 130,000. A score slowly creeping up with the one from the Spanish Flu. Total fatalities across the world are above 500,000 with more than 10 million cases. Remember folks to keep washing your hands.

Some Quotes from Brian

"Help yourself and God will help you."

"To start a conflagration all you need is one spark."

"Sometimes is better to remain quiet than to speak something stupid and make yourself look like an ass".

"The person who can solve a conflict with their intelligence has no need for their fists."

"If a person's character, loyalty or opinion can be bought; then they aren't worth being a member of your tribe."

"If a problem is too big for you to handle, then chip away at it and eventually the problem will disappear".

"Make the most of your life. You are preparing for the here-after. Make your life something good."

"The squeeky wheel may get the grease, but the one who sits with quiet patience gets the best reward."

"If we were to revert to the people we were as children we find ourselves without faults."

"If you want a great thing, you will have to make a personal sacrifice. The greater the value of that which you sacrifice, the more valuable the payout."

"Don't rely on a person's reputation to find out who they are. Get to know them first and judge from their character and actions."

"Gossip is only farts coming out of the wrong it. Don't let bullshit come from your mouth".

Independence Day 2017 SPECIAL EDITION~BREAKING NEWS: North Korea Tests 11th Missile~U.S. and DPRK at BRINK OF WAR

     I am currently on vacation at Lake Murray right now to celebrate the 4th of July. Interesting things are going on right now in the hermit kingdom. The Democratic People's Republic of Korea have tested, for the eleventh time, an alleged ICBM capable of hitting the U.S. main land. When will we stop having talks and making sanctions and actually do something about it? As I understand, South Korea and the U.S. have fired missiles as a show of force. The situation draws closer and closer to all out war. I had previously said that Kim would try something on the 4th of July, and I was correct. The North uses holidays and special events to preform provocative acts against its enemies. A form of hostile passive aggression.

     Some of you know that I am an ordained Minister and that I provide spiritual support and guidance and often care to the homeless and people in need. I also do tarot readings of which I charge 5 dollars per reading. While I provide spiritual guidance and support without expecting anything in return, I do accept any kind of hospitality in return. But that is only to maintain my keep, so to speak. I DO NOT do these things for personal gain, but in service to God. If you are in any kind of need, please contact me and I will help you in any way I can and in any reasonable way.
BrianHill2393@gmail.com

Here are some things that I do:
~ Prayer. We can pray together, or you can simply tell me what you need prayer for and I will do it alone, if that is your preference.
~ I am someone you can talk to if you need a person who cares. I am not a therapist or anything like that, but I AM a caring person and will listen and help in any way possible or point you in the direction of resources or other help.
~ Offer spiritual and metaphysical guidance.
~ Help with special needs. Let me know what your needs are and I will let you know if I can help.
~ I can take care of sick and elderly, children, etc. I have experience as a Nurses Aide and Medical Assistant and work well with handicapped and people with special needs.
~ Give love and hugs, especially to those who are in need of them. I will not withhold love from anyone who needs it.

I DO NOT diagnose or treat illnesses or provide professional counseling of any type.

Other things I can sometimes provide:
~ If you are in need of something and I have it, I MAY provide it to you based on your level of need.
~ I will write you literature at your request. Stories, writing for  your entertainment and even literotica.
~ Spiritual and religious text, if I have spare text on hand.
~ Occasionally I have provided clothes for people.
~ Homemade Movies. With a VHS tape I can make you home movies for your enjoyment. =)
~ A friend. If  you need a friend/big brother/role model or whatever, I will be that person for you.

I hope that if you are in need, you will somehow reach out to me. If you have work that you will pay me for, I would also be interested if you tell me more. I am currently looking for work oppportunites and extra ways to make money. Also on a different note, I am no longer a member of the Oklahoma State Guard. I wont get into the reasons behind that, but I am planning to volunteer for the United States Naval Sea Cadet Corps now. Wish me luck!

P.S. At this time I am without a cell phone, so phone contact with me is now impossible. You will have to message me on my Facebook Page or email me (the address is above).

A Few "Short" Words For Our Changing Age

     I am currently going through nightmares with all the women in my life. My judgmental mother whom is infinitely disappointed in me and always will be no matter what I accomplish, so why should I bother to try? Eh? Then "my baby" mamma, Melodie, the cheating whore. And I'm being nice. Unfaithful to her boy friend and to me. I am not upset about that part though, because I am used to, and fully expect to be cheated on-which is why I have just decided to call it "polyamoury". I am very skeptical that the baby is mine. How could she know anyway? There are so many potential candidates for the father! She (amongst others) are driving me to the loony bin and I am not exaggerating. I have come quite close to loosing my shit over the past week. At one time I considered my life in a temporary transition, but now it seems a permanent state of being-which I am not entirely unhappy with. I wish I could have a more stable family life and healthy relationship with my possible child, but I am now resolved to the fact that I will not have her in my life. It's for the best anyway, me thinks. Besides, my future holds a responsibility for me that would only be held back by a kid and would only probably endanger any family I was with. What I mean by that, is that I expect very soon the shit to hit the fan world wide and whatever I am being saved for, I imagine requires me to be in dangerous survival situations. To have a family to take care of and defend would be impossible. It is better that I remain single, solitary and without offspring to worry about. Best for everyone I imagine.


     Donald Trump has promised to throw Hillary in jail, if he is elected. Hillary looks like she will end up being the first casualty of the Trump Police state. Are you ready? I am! I'm kind of looking forward to it. In a sick way I hope he gets elected, just so we can see World War III! If Hillary is elected we may see Armageddon averted for another 4-8 years depending. I would HATE for that to happen! What will I blog about?


     I theorize that 'Climate Change', is a natural cycle in nature and probably has occurred many times before, and will may times after we have wiped ourselves off the record of history. Perhaps it is an eschatological event planned by God to coincide with end times. Or perhaps, its just another nudge from nature that doubtlessly has came and gone millions of times through the ages. And if it does wipe us out, so what? We had a half-assed run. Do we really deserve to be a part of earths future? Or are we seeing some spring cleaning from Mother Gaia herself, to sweep out the old to make way for the new next stage of creation? Are the current climate changes set up by God as a warning or preparation for an apocalypse to come? A pre-step towards the fulfillment of prophecy?


     The point of my spiritual initiation is not to back step. Not to "go backwards". I have done a few dance steps backwards over the past week. This isn't the first time, and generally I recover quickly, but each revisit into the Abyss takes me deeper into the darkness, farther from the light. I am again crawling out of the pit, but this time I feel like I am bringing something back with me. Something dark. I have been sleeping like crap lately. This is typical for me. My dreams and mind play cruel torture games with me. Ruminating over the torments and demons of my life. Then on top of it all my back is killing me. Muscle contractions in the thoracic region. This morning I woke up abruptly and wanted to return to sleep,  but instead got up and had something to eat. Tried to lay back down for a nap that wouldn't come, so I ended up leaving and going about my mostly unproductive day. For lunch I fixed a chicken sandwich which I ended up having to throw away because a fruit fly claimed it for himself. Why the hell do I have so many fruit flies in my apartment? There seem to be gnats all over the state too. Probably from the recent wet weather and warm winter. I visited Lake Murray in Ardmore, and despite all the speak about Zika mosquitoes, I didn't see one damn mosquito. I was looking forward to contracting the virus. Better luck in July? If I do end up going back (which I doubt I will). What's for dinner tonight? I haven't really decided. I guess I will come up with SOMETHING. Not noodles though. No, I am getting tired of noodles. Have been for quite awhile. Probably cookie dough ice cream. I LOVE raw cookie dough!


     I cant remember what I dreamt but I imagine it involved me screaming in the middle of the night. I am have come militant anti-Psychiatry and big pharma. "Don't smoke week and don't drink alcohol" they say "but here take some of these...they will make you better and...like us". No thanks. You can keep your Prozac and Celexa and your synthetic chemicals. Take 'em yourself. Make your dick not work-leave my dick alone! I don't want your cancer causing substances. Leave me what nature gave me. What Goddess intended me to take. It is Ramadan and I haven't been a good Muslim. Been smoking and eating (fucking?) when I shouldn't have been. Allah have mercy on me. I did much better last year, but last year I had a guide to motivate me. This year I am going through my own self-Jihad. Oh guess what? A gnat just landed next to me. What is this a fucking plague!? A gnat plague. Time to go home and drink some haram alcohol. Have a good weekend all you paranoids and survivalists and curiosity seekers! And happy Ramadan!