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A Few "Short" Words For Our Changing Age

     I am currently going through nightmares with all the women in my life. My judgmental mother whom is infinitely disappointed in me and always will be no matter what I accomplish, so why should I bother to try? Eh? Then "my baby" mamma, Melodie, the cheating whore. And I'm being nice. Unfaithful to her boy friend and to me. I am not upset about that part though, because I am used to, and fully expect to be cheated on-which is why I have just decided to call it "polyamoury". I am very skeptical that the baby is mine. How could she know anyway? There are so many potential candidates for the father! She (amongst others) are driving me to the loony bin and I am not exaggerating. I have come quite close to loosing my shit over the past week. At one time I considered my life in a temporary transition, but now it seems a permanent state of being-which I am not entirely unhappy with. I wish I could have a more stable family life and healthy relationship with my possible child, but I am now resolved to the fact that I will not have her in my life. It's for the best anyway, me thinks. Besides, my future holds a responsibility for me that would only be held back by a kid and would only probably endanger any family I was with. What I mean by that, is that I expect very soon the shit to hit the fan world wide and whatever I am being saved for, I imagine requires me to be in dangerous survival situations. To have a family to take care of and defend would be impossible. It is better that I remain single, solitary and without offspring to worry about. Best for everyone I imagine.


     Donald Trump has promised to throw Hillary in jail, if he is elected. Hillary looks like she will end up being the first casualty of the Trump Police state. Are you ready? I am! I'm kind of looking forward to it. In a sick way I hope he gets elected, just so we can see World War III! If Hillary is elected we may see Armageddon averted for another 4-8 years depending. I would HATE for that to happen! What will I blog about?


     I theorize that 'Climate Change', is a natural cycle in nature and probably has occurred many times before, and will may times after we have wiped ourselves off the record of history. Perhaps it is an eschatological event planned by God to coincide with end times. Or perhaps, its just another nudge from nature that doubtlessly has came and gone millions of times through the ages. And if it does wipe us out, so what? We had a half-assed run. Do we really deserve to be a part of earths future? Or are we seeing some spring cleaning from Mother Gaia herself, to sweep out the old to make way for the new next stage of creation? Are the current climate changes set up by God as a warning or preparation for an apocalypse to come? A pre-step towards the fulfillment of prophecy?


     The point of my spiritual initiation is not to back step. Not to "go backwards". I have done a few dance steps backwards over the past week. This isn't the first time, and generally I recover quickly, but each revisit into the Abyss takes me deeper into the darkness, farther from the light. I am again crawling out of the pit, but this time I feel like I am bringing something back with me. Something dark. I have been sleeping like crap lately. This is typical for me. My dreams and mind play cruel torture games with me. Ruminating over the torments and demons of my life. Then on top of it all my back is killing me. Muscle contractions in the thoracic region. This morning I woke up abruptly and wanted to return to sleep,  but instead got up and had something to eat. Tried to lay back down for a nap that wouldn't come, so I ended up leaving and going about my mostly unproductive day. For lunch I fixed a chicken sandwich which I ended up having to throw away because a fruit fly claimed it for himself. Why the hell do I have so many fruit flies in my apartment? There seem to be gnats all over the state too. Probably from the recent wet weather and warm winter. I visited Lake Murray in Ardmore, and despite all the speak about Zika mosquitoes, I didn't see one damn mosquito. I was looking forward to contracting the virus. Better luck in July? If I do end up going back (which I doubt I will). What's for dinner tonight? I haven't really decided. I guess I will come up with SOMETHING. Not noodles though. No, I am getting tired of noodles. Have been for quite awhile. Probably cookie dough ice cream. I LOVE raw cookie dough!


     I cant remember what I dreamt but I imagine it involved me screaming in the middle of the night. I am have come militant anti-Psychiatry and big pharma. "Don't smoke week and don't drink alcohol" they say "but here take some of these...they will make you better and...like us". No thanks. You can keep your Prozac and Celexa and your synthetic chemicals. Take 'em yourself. Make your dick not work-leave my dick alone! I don't want your cancer causing substances. Leave me what nature gave me. What Goddess intended me to take. It is Ramadan and I haven't been a good Muslim. Been smoking and eating (fucking?) when I shouldn't have been. Allah have mercy on me. I did much better last year, but last year I had a guide to motivate me. This year I am going through my own self-Jihad. Oh guess what? A gnat just landed next to me. What is this a fucking plague!? A gnat plague. Time to go home and drink some haram alcohol. Have a good weekend all you paranoids and survivalists and curiosity seekers! And happy Ramadan!


    

Hooray! I Created a Person!

     To begin- I feel like it is imperative that I share this with you. I am always doing better than I deserve; and am often silent when I am 'visiting the lower planes', but I always try to keep the sun rise or sun set somewhere in my field of vision. Any of the paths that I walk down may, or may not not work out. I am interested in the possibility to go to Flight Attendant school, however I may not qualify for a Canadian Visa. But, the future is still yet to be seen. Since my last publication, I learned that I am to be a father, This is wonderful news to me. It Is literally a dream come true. I will love my baby no matter what, but here is my wish list:
-It would be really super if I got a little girl. I have always wanted a "daddy's girl" to love, feed and water.
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I cant think of any more. No need too! I got lost in day dreams of what kind of a girl she is! I speak of the gender in feminine since all humans start out in female form in-utero. At some point in early development the embryo "decides" its gender and either forms into a male, or remains female. Hint: In ultrasounds look for the "hamburger" or the "hotdog". Until I know the gender further, I will refer to my coming gift in the feminine.

     Unrelated, but I would also like to remember a Soldier I myself did not know personally, but I did happen to read about. Private Kirby Tott of the Canadian Army Defense Force unfortunately left this world, but he did so in the noble and honorable service of his own nation and of which I pray God will bless, and that him and his family both are comforted and taken care of. He retired from his assigned duty in this life in July of 2015. I would like to thank him for stepping up to serve his nation which is an ally of mine and of whom I am hoping will come to our help when we require, just as we will them. It is team work of nations that will lead us to a brighter better future. That Canadian Soldier did his part in protecting the free man that includes me, him and I hope YOU dear reader, whom I am assuming resides in a free nation. If not, if you live in a country that is currently occupied and oppressed then know this...we of the free world hear your cries and we are coming to rescue you, give us time and we will reach you. Until that day though, look up so you will have a beautiful view of the world we will create together, Insha'Allah.

     Currently our flapping headed  Canadian brothers and sisters are battling a wildfire that is not only out of control, but is threatening two provinces. In Perry, Oklahoma tonight, there was two earthquakes, both during a weather storm. One significant enough to alarm residents. What an interesting world (and state) we live in. Now if only Governor Marry Fallin (whom I recently wrote) will 'ok' my ticket into the OKARNG, then I will be cooking with grease! Some, things may be happening thought that may require putting that off for awhile, or indefinitely. Doesn't matter either way, I am merely here to conform to God's Will and plan for me and to be thankful and appreciative for it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The World's scriptures are the text books to the courses of the University of Life~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This is a 'Star of David' of which I found on Google Images.  would source the original location, but honestly I am still orienting to how to do all that. This is the holy symbol for Judaism and is also on the national flag of Israel. The star that appeared above the nativity of the Prophet and child of God; Isa` (Jesus). Some find it offensive, but it is just a star. I am by no means anti-Semitic, but I am openly sympathetic to the Palestinian people and their occupied territory. The same story has been told in the United States with the Native Americans and Hispanic cultures, it is being told by the Communist government in China to the people of Tibet and people on both sides of the 38th parallel can understand where I come from on this issue. Its not even a matter to me on who's right and who's wrong. Unification will come, but it must come peacefully, through the collective will of the people and whether you acknowledge or not...Divine Guidance as well. Time will show and time will tell.

BTW Happy birthday Missy, who has turned 9. Yesterday was her birthday.

Good night and good morning and have a day of blessings.
Keep your eyes open, because miracles are the most common thing in the world, but tend to go unseen.

-[Insert Honorific Title of Choice Here] Brian Hill, May 9th, 2016

There be storms approachin'

The Coming Liar

     I am optimistic about a possibly positive development in my life. I am hoping it works out. Anyway, I have been obsessively analyzing one of my favorite movies lately-Funny Games. I may need to write my an article about my interpretation of it soon? I am getting ongoing dental work to get a full and handsome smile. I project the end of the work to be sometime mid to late next month, just in time for summer. I also now have glasses. I used to wear glasses and should still have been, but I don't know what ever happened to my old pair (lost about 10 years ago).

     And storm season is here, and the Geological Survey has also put out a notice of increased earthquake risk for states east of the Rockies. Some areas of Oklahoma have seen a reduction in seismic activity, apparently as a result of regulations newly put in place for the fracking industry in Oklahoma to limit the activity of man-made earthquakes.  Today there was also a murder-suicide at Lackland Air Force Base in San Antonio, Texas (where Recruit Airman attend Basic Training).

I did not attend prayer service to Masjiid today, so here is an article about Dajjal (an antichrist persona of Islam):

Characteristics of Dajjal

-God will allow him to preform supernatural acts. Some examples are:

• Kills people and brings them back to life.

• Can command it to rain.

• By verbal command, causes grass and vegetation to grow where he wills.

• He will have with him what appears to be Paradise and Hell. But in reality, what appears to be Hell will actually be paradise and what appears to be Paradise...Hell. [The power to make a dystopia appear to be a utopia?]

-He has 'two rivers flowing with him'.

-Has one eye (Left? Think 'Left Hand Path'-the path of Satanism and Black Magic). [This is interesting because the AntiChrist in Revelation is assassinated by a head wound. Could this be the same individual? Perhaps a bullet fired at his head pierces his right eye?]

-Has the letters 'C A 1'/word kfr (Arabic letters for 'unbeliever' written on his forehead).

-Every believer (even illiterate ones) will be able to read "unbeliever' written upon his head.

-At some point Allah will render Dajjal incapable of killing or any of his occult powers thus rendering him impotent.

-He will be killed by Jesus upon his return. [In Revelation, the antichrist is killed by the voice of Christ with one utterance from the Saviors mouth]

-He is the Imposter Messiah [Compare with AntiChrist].

-He will be given trials.

-Whoever memorizes the first ten verses of Surat al-Kahf will be protected from Dajjal. The last ten verses of  the surah may likewise be important.

-Eye of Dajjal

-The Satanic Trinity is composed of 'Adversary', 'Enlightener' and 'Destroyer' (Apollyon) or also: 'The Imposter', 'The Beast' and 'Anti-Messiah'.

-Trinity consists of 3.
 333(2)
 333 x 2 [=]
 666

 Let he who has wisdom know the number of the Beast! And Behold! It was the number of a man and that number is
                       616
                      "Disbelief"

Big Gas, Don't Forget to Give Pandora Her Key's Back When You are Done Playing With Her Trembling Box

    


     What an interesting winter we have had. A few icy days, but mostly spring like weather. This is because of el Niño. When the water of the Pacific ocean is unusually warm and evaporates contributing to weather changes...Today it is unseasonably warm for Oklahoma (but what is 'seasonable' for Oklahoma, really? I think that tomorrow will be cooler. This week will cool down. We had a few impressive lightning strikes over the weekend. I recall a particularly bright flash and unusually long thunderous rolling sound shortly after 5a.m. on Saturday. I welcome such weather. I have been through the two worst storms in Oklahoma's history, the two biggest earthquakes and a terrorist bombing of downtown when I was about nine or ten. What a piece of natural history I have been witness to! Sometimes Oklahoma is the most boring place on the whole face of mother earth, and sometimes it is the most interesting! Oklahoma is not only the capital of tornado alley, it is also the United States Capital for earthquakes.


     We got by with almost no observable flue season this year. Allergies are horrible though. The next bad flu pass I expect would be about 2014 and slightly milder than this previous one in 2013. Another bit of good news, is that even if we halted fracking in Oklahoma right now, the quakes could continue for decades. Thank you Natural Gas Industry for opening Pandora's seismic box. North Korea is continuing to scream its rhetoric, but this time is throwing careless threats of nuclear warfare mixed with flinging artillery into the east Korean sea has the world scratching its head while Russia threatens the DPRK with potential military intervention. Kim Jong Un will be his own undoing.


     I have been undergoing ongoing dental surgery. Today I am thankful to be able to eat some what normally. When this is all done and over, I will be very relieved. Very very relieved. The swelling in my mouth is just plane annoying, but I have been nursing myself for several days now and managing pain and inflammation and sleeping and resting etc.

Father God, Mother Nature!

          I am going through relationship problems. This is a constant thing with me. Every time I start dating someone, the same problems come up and the same cycles do their thing. A particularly special relationship I have been in has collapsed. The reason I said it was special, was because aside from the fact that it was special, synchronicity was occurring every where. There were the signs to go forward with it. I blew it though. That's what I am good at. It's usually from some small mistake on my part, that causes a conflagration. I'm clumsy that way. I don't know why I am driven inside towards wanting someone, when God's plan for me is not to have that person. Or is it God's plan for me to have that person, but my own screw ups that create obstacles? Does it even matter? I doubt it. What will be will be. Sometimes I feel like the Greek god Typhon.
     
     
     The Zika virus has come out of nowhere. I am bored with it myself, but the WHO says it is a worldwide emergency, because it can infect a fetus and cause Microenchephela. For healthy adults I guess its not a big deal. Just a 'flu' like illness. Ebola seems to have become endemic in central Africa. We have had a very weak flu season, which is a relief having come from several years worth of avian flu, H1N1, swine, etc. Seems to me that nature is sitting in her lab, figuring us out. She created us. And so she shall destroy us.

Wake and Shake, it's an Okie Quake!

     Yesterday we had the third largest quake in Oklahoma's history. 5.1 Magnitude. I felt it, but yesterday was a horribly bad bad day for me. I'm not going to spill my current crisis here, because i am trying to not have to revisit it unecessarily. I had a very horrible day, but let's focus on the quake. Staring at the ceiling reviewing the misery I was being dragged through, I noticed the light fixture above me shaking. When I  am feeling a temblor, I use the experience to study 'in lab' (during the shaking I make mental notes what is happening so i can analyze the quake later). I placed a hand on a dresser top and my other hand on the floor to measure the "vibrational frequency" of the seismic energy. For a moment I thought the shaking was psychosomatic-that perhaps the adrenaline from everything that day was giving me misperceptions. I confirmed the quake was seismic by noting the time and comparing notes with what the OGS and USGS have published. Something about the experience of nature's power gives me a rush. Feeling the 'moment magnitude' during the quake leaves me in a feeling of awe towards the forces that control our planet. The 'ground motion' making motion sick with vertigo from feeling the ground under me roll like a ship while simultaneously tossed around by the concussion of energy from the unimaginable power being expressed from some distant fault.

     The news reported that an amphibious assault warship (a boat load of Marines) has left to begin its voyage. Why is that significant? Because that means those Marines have a destination in mind. That means somewhere, someone is about to be invaded by us. The reason you send out an amphibious expeditionary assault corps, is to create a "beach head". That means taking a large contingency of Marines and with lightning quick speed having them occupy a coastal territory. If you have any plans on visiting the beach of a nation we currently have a beef with, it might be better to choose a different location. Places I would not suggest having a beach blanket party just yet:
*(North) Korea
*Syria
*Russia
*China (but probably not)